Andromeda Black
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Post by Andromeda Black on Jan 11, 2010 21:29:38 GMT -5
May 28th
Afternoon ; Class
- - W o r r i e d
Well.
This is weird. Apparently Alice's date last night went horribly. That's what she told me last class. But she just doesn't want to talk about it. 'Cause guess what? She's found someone else. Yep.
Seriously.
Or rather:
Sirius-ly.
I'm not kidding. Alice is dating Sirius. Sirius. My cousin Sirius. Sirius Orion Black. And Alice. My best friend. And my cousin. Like whoah, okay, I know this happened before with Bella and Reg but that was well... not Alice and Sirius! Alice likes Frank! Sure, she and Sirius are best friends or whatever but well, whatever. I can't believe this. Sirius is being such a jerk lately and now... really? He's dating! Alice!! She likes Frank! But then I don't know. She says she's been in love with Sirius since she was eleven. And I mean, I guess I can believe that. Not that it makes sense but she has always seemed to have a little - or I guess not-so-little - crush on him. But I mean... it's Sirius. I just have a bad feeling. I'm trying to be supportive but like I don't know. I don't want her to get hurt. But maybe I'm just biased. Okay, I'm definitely biased. Sirius is probably one of my least favorite people right now. But still. I'm trying to be objective. I don't know.
...We talked about Drake too. And how weird everything is. But I don't really want to hash that out again. We talked about Ted too, I guess he and Alice are good friends and all. I don't know, she was weird. But I'm happy for her. I know I don't seem like I am, but I swear it. If Sirius makes her happy, who am I to judge? If she loves Sirius, who am I to tell her not to?
She means it enough to be able to say it just like that. I can barely admit to myself that I love Drake. It's too scary.
Toujours Pur,
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Post by Andromeda Black on Jan 11, 2010 21:39:19 GMT -5
May 29th
Evening ; Dorm Room
- - P e s s i m i s t i c
Okay, maybe I've obsessing over this just a little bit. Whatever. But still! Alice and Sirius?! Really?! This is crazy. Alice even said that according to Lily, Sirius is in love with some other girl. Which is even more crazy but doesn't that just prove that he's not exactly the best guy she should be dating? Blah blah blah, he's my cousin, I know, but first off, he's being an ass right now and secondly, he's Sirius Black. His head doesn't need any more inflating but I think it's safe to say that his reputation proceeds him. The fact that he's my cousin is irrelevant, I'm still concerned for Alice. I mean, it's not like Lily would just lie to her, that doesn't make sense! Neither does Sirius being in love with someone but just... ugh! This is such a mess. Why did Frank have to fuck up that date? I mean, he must have, right? She was so excited about it! And now she's dating Sirius. This is crazy. I wonder if I should say something. To him. I mean he's pissed and everything but still. Alice is my friend and I don't want her getting hurt. Eleven words. But I don't know. Maybe I should just keep my nose out of this. It's not my business. But she's my friend. And I just have a bad feeling.
Damn it, Frank!
Toujours Pur,
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Post by Andromeda Black on Jan 11, 2010 22:08:36 GMT -5
May 31st
Late Afternoon ; Dorm Room
- - P i s s e d O f f
Well that didn't work out so well.
No shit.
I tried to talk to James. To see if he would pass on the message to Sirius and all, just to be careful. Well, not only was James - weirdly enough - unaware of the fact that Sirius and Alice are dating but he was surprised because as far as he knew, Sirius was in love with Marlene McKinnon. I know like wtf? That's crazy. Sirius. Sirius. In love. Ha. But that's what Lily tried to say too. And James seemed positive it was true. That's what he and Marlene broke up apparently. I don't know, it all seemed rather messy so I wasn't going to pry. Besides, it only got worse from there.
I don't even know how we got on the subject but James said something about the stuff in the tabloid about me being a joke. And I told him wasn't. Because I'm obviously the most stupid person alive. Yeah. Needless to say, he was kinda pissed. If 'kinda pissed' can encompass the long rant that followed where he basically went on about how horrible my sisters and Regulus are and how I'm just some conniving bitch now obviously and how could I do this to Sirius 'cause he's always cared about me and blah blah blah. No one gets it! If Sirius really cared about me, he'd want this for me. Because this is what I want. Everything I want. It's the only reason I've been able to sacrifice so much for it.
But did James understand that? No. Of course not. As far as he sees it, I've pretty much gone and sold my soul to the Devil and he doesn't give a shit anymore because obviously I just think he's scum now. Which I don't. I mean, muggleborns aren't the same as purebloods but they aren't scum. But ugh, he was making all these accusations about how this means I want to kill everyone because obviously look at that Jagger guy! He died! And that must mean that I'm gonna start murdering people now! I don't know, it didn't make any sense. All the same, after enough of it, I just gave up and stopped replying. There comes a point where there's just nothing left to say.
Toujours Pur,
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Post by Andromeda Black on Jan 11, 2010 23:51:42 GMT -5
June 3rd
Afternoon ; Courtyard
- - P e n s i v e
I don't know what to do.
I mean, after that conversation, I think it's pretty clear that James isn't going to be doing me any favours anytime soon. Which means ixnay on the message being passed on to Sirius. And well, I don't really know Remus well enough to ask him to pass it on, and I don't want to risk making things weird with Bella by putting her in the middle of this... Peter would be the logical choice 'cause Merlin knows I want to see him again he's friends with Sirius too and could certainly get the message to him but...
Oh fuck this. Am I a little girl or an almost-woman? Am I a complete coward or someone brave enough to stand up for her beliefs even when it means losing all her friends? ...Okay, don't answer that. I realize that's not exactly true. But damn it, I'm trying to inspire myself here. Not such an easy feat. Whatever. Point is, why do I need to get someone else to pass the message along? I'm not the one giving Sirius the silent treatment - plus like hello, aren't we all a bit old for that? - so there's no reason I can't just talk him myself, right? Exactly.
We're all grown ups here. Or well, close enough. Which means that I can talk to him perfectly politely and it can all be very civil.
Except wait, this is Sirius. Oh fuckmylife.
No, I'm not scared. All the same, I should probably spend a few days getting my thoughts in order in case he decides to start attacking me and my decisions and everything. He probably will. Git. But no no no. This isn't right. This is stupid. I'm going to talk to Sirius. I'll find him next week. This week I just want to relax and focus on pulling my grades up and paying attention in class so that I can pass.
Toujours Pur,
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