♥ in our small way ♥

[Gabriella Rivera]

[Gabriella Rivera]

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Maybe you and I can't do great things

We may not change the world in one ^{d a y}

But we still can change some things today...

In our ^{s m a l l} way

In despair we'll be the hope
And the prayer that frees the ^{s o u l}
We'll be ^{t h e r e} to share each lonely road
Because we ^{l o v e}, I know
We care enough

Just a little time is all it ^{t a k e s}

What a difference just a

Smile can make, you'll

see ^{l o v e} is all we n e e d

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lyrics credit to
michael jackson

[Gabriella Rivera]

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IT'S GOOD TO BE HERE
LONG TIME NO SEE, DEAR

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mood: esctatic

So I JUST got back from the feast with everyone else. Gosh, it's SO good to be back here and see everyone again, although really I miss Papi and Tia already, even though it's only been...quite a few hours, dios =/ Hopefully they're doing well without me! I'm sure they're used to it by now. I mean, I've been going to Hogwarts for...four years! And now is my fifth year! Dios, it's my fifth year. My OWLs are this year! Gosh, I hear they're really, really hard. I'll have to work my BUTT off if I want to get good grades! The OWL year is the most important, after all! If I don't do well, I might not be able to take the classes that I need to become a healer! Oh gosh, that would be really, really bad >< Still, I'm sure if I put my mind to it, and study everything at once, then I can do it! I mean, I may not be any Ravenclaw, but goshdarn it I can surely get straight E's at least!

Well, anyway, I do not want to think about homework! I'm back to Hogwarts and I don't have to worry about school work tonight! It was SO good to see everyone on the train again, I'd missed them soooo much, especially the ones I didn't see all summer! Like Emmie and Clairry and JorJor and Fi and Rosie and Eleanor and Sooz and TJ and and...just all of them, gosh I can't name all of them haha. Which is still soooo weird to me, even after four years. I have friends and that's amazing, I hope I never lose them. It was SO good to see them again! You know what's kind-of bumming me out, though? The fact that Severus Snape graduated >.< I know, I know, STILL? Yes, I still like him. I just can't help it! My crushes last a long time >.< Of course, he doesn't know. Gosh, I would DIE if he found out. Like, seriously, just DIEEE! So yes, he can't find out. I kind-of miss him a lot though.

Bah, soy tan tonta!

translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
Dios: God
Soy tan tonta: I'm so silly

^{*** Skar and Arti - and any other spanish-speakers out there -,
if you're reading this diary,
THIS IS TOTALLY TAKEN OFF FREE TRANSLATION
I DO NOT SPEAK SPANISH AND THUS DON'T
UNDERSTAND IF WHAT I'M WRITING ACTUALLY
MAKES SENSE XD}

[Gabriella Rivera]

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ALL I EVER THINK ABOUT IS YOU
YOU GOT ME HYPNOTIZED, SO MESMERIZED

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mood: giddy

AY DIOS MIO, AY DIOS MIO, AY DIOS MIO!!!! YOU WILL NOT BELIEVE WHAT I JUST FOUND OUT, DIARY! SEVERUS SNAPE IS BACK!!!!!!!! He's actually BACK! To HOGWARTS! He's like an apprentice-y type thing for Professor Slughorn now and he's going to set up this club that's both for helping students AND to teach other students advanced potions and difhskdfjfihi HE'S ACTUALLY, REALLY, TRULY BACK!! I haven't seen him yet, unfortunately >.< BUT I'm totally signing up for the club and I can get my weekly dose of Severus Snape wonderfulness and and and oh gosh this is so so so GREAT! :D dsifdiff I can't even write anymore, my hands are SHAKING, I'm just so excited ahhhhhh!!!!!

Severus Snaaaaaaaape! ♥ ♥

translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
Ay dios mio: Oh my God

[Gabriella Rivera]

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IF IT AIN'T BROKE
DON'T FIX IT

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september 6th
mood: good

Broke my quill today in the library. Well, actually, I kind-of dropped it and then this Slytherin girl accidentally stepped on it and it broke, clean in half. And then I tried to fix it with Reparo but...well, that hasn't always been my strongest point. But then the girl (her name is Priscilla and she is really very pretty and seems quite nice) fixed it for me! It's still not quite the same as it was before, of course. Actually, it seems a little...wilted. Can a quill look wilted? I can't remember how long I've been using it for, I keep forgetting to buy a new one. Or when I do remember, I never have any money. Sigh. Oh well, I'm sure this will survive with me for a few more months to come, at least.

Saw Severus Mr. Snape today. Dios, he looked good.

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[li] Stop staring at Sev Mr. Snape so openly, he might catch on.
[/li][li] Complete that Transfiguration essay, it's due in three days!
[/li][li] Buy a new quill soon(?)
[/li][li] Practice the Reparo spell; comes in handy.
[/li][li] Try to find out what Severus looks like when he smiles. I bet he looks lovely.
[/li][li] Stop having creepy lovey dovey thoughts about Mr. Snape![/li][/ul][/blockquote]

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translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
Dios: God

[Gabriella Rivera]

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FREE YOUR MIND
AND THE REST WILL FOLLOW

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september 8th
mood: hungry (for pie)

I met this adorably hilarious boy in my History of Magic class today! I mean, he's adorable, and he's funny, too! He told me a joke. Something about...gosh. I suddenly can't remember. Something about a zero and an eight and...a...belt? Oh gosh, this is depressing, I wanted to tell the joke to Gideon! I bet he would've found it hilarious! Oh well, I'll think of...something or something. Anyway. Davey likes pie! Davey's the boy I was talking to, did I mention that? Davey...something. I don't think he gave me his last name, and I really can't remember. Eurgh, I really need to get better at remembering people's names, it's getting to be quite annoying. Not to mention it's rude if I just forget people's names! I wouldn't want them to forget my name! Although, well, I mean I suppose it's fairly easy for someone to not recall me since, well, I've never exactly been one to make that big of an impact on someone, you know? Not like Emmie, at least. I'm not...you know. As open and pretty and sociable and stuff. But hey, I'm working on that, yes? Yes, I am. And...I'm doing okay? I mean, I don't know. I don't get as tongue tied around new people anymore. Oh, gosh, okay that's a bit of a lie, I kind of do when it's face-to-face, but I seem to be okay when I'm passing notes with people! I hardly stuttered or got weird or shy when I was talking to Priscilla and Davey, and I think that's a step in the right direction, right? I should just hang out with Emme more. Pick up tips on how to be more sociable and stuff. She's like...amazing at that. She's so popular and stuff. I mean, she's friends with Rita Skeeter who, while not exactly the most likable girl in Hogwarts, is definitely one of the most popular! Oh, AND Emmeline has a MUCH older boyfriend. Theodore Tonks, you know? Head boy and stuff. I can't remember if I wrote about that. Actually, I don't think I did...hmm.

Anyway. Papi wrote to me today! He says everything is going well with him and my Tia, which is good! I do miss them ever so much! I hope Tia Inez is making sure that Papi is eating healthy. He doesn't exactly agree with my vegan life style, always said that he couldn't give up beef whenever we could have any. Which I really don't understand because how anyone could even stand to eat something that was once living is beyond me! But oh well, I can't enforce my ideas on anyone, much less my own Papi! I just hope he's not eating too much red meat and is focusing on getting his greens as well and stuff. I think I'll mention that in my next letter. Yes, yes I will.

I think I'm going to go hang out with Gideon now! I haven't seen him in...a few hours and that's just unacceptable! Hehe. I think I'll take him to the kitchens. I have a sudden craving for pie...

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[li] Practice the silencing charm.
[/li][li] Start the History of Magic essay on the Troll war of...of...(? SHOOT I must have missed it while I was talking to Davey)
[/li][li] Stop staring at Mr. Snape's butt when he's helping/talking to the person in front of you. It doesn't matter if it's nice, people are bound to notice!
[/li][li] Mention the possibility of Tia Inez mailing her scrumptious pie in my letter to Papi.[/li][/ul]
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translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
Tia: Aunt

[Gabriella Rivera]

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YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE
I'M LIVIN' A TEENAGE DREAM

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september 10th
mood: naughty

I got an O on my latest Potions essay! You know, if I wasn't so dead-set on being a Healer, I would have totally wanted to be a Potions master like Severus. Wouldn't that be cool? I do love Potions a lot and, I mean, it could be like my back up! I mean, everyone has a back-up, right? I can't remember if Gideon has an alternative..I know he wants to be an Auror, but maybe he also wants to be a famous Quidditch player! Although he did always tell me he was too big for that...And, well, I see the point I mean Gideon is pretty heavy (one time we were sleeping together and he sort of rolled over and I totally couldn't breathe for like five seconds) but, I mean, it's not his fault! It's his body type! Anyway, where was I? Oh yeah, back ups. Hmm, yeah, I think Gideon might have one! Or, if he doesn't, I'll suggest one to him. I mean, I'm going to be completely honest, I'd rather he didn't become an Auror. I mean, Fabian's an Auror, and it's bad enough I have to worry about HIM all the time and, well, I don't know Fabian's older and...and strong and stuff, although I guess by the time that Gideon can be Auror, he'll be old enough and I'm sure he'll make an amazing Auror but...oh well. I guess I'll just have to...wait and see.

Back to Potions though! So yeah, I think that'll be top priority. Would be really awesome if I could be a Potions master like Mr. Snape. And then I could come back here and teach Potions! Although...well, I suppose Severus will probably be the one to teach Potions in the future once Professor Slughorn is gone. But then I could be HIS apprentice and then maybe one night he'll ask me back to his office and I'll be wearing something provocative and he'll--

Oh. Oh. Ay dios mio.

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[li] Cut down on the steamy novels. They're giving me ideas and day dreams and stuff[/li][/ul]
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translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
Ay dios mio: Oh my God.

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SHE HID AROUND CORNERS
AND SHE HID UNDER BEDS

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september 11th
mood: embarrassed

So. Claire found out about my...er...reading habits. It was totally accidental, too. I mean, the cover and title weren't even that bad, but then thing was...she'd already read it! So, I guess she reads 'em too. Except she assured me that they were not the type of books that she usually reads. I, of course, couldn't lie and told her about my hefty collection of similarly dirty erotic? educational?...themed novels. She looked surprised and...well, I can't exactly blame her. I mean, who would've thought that Gabriella Rivera knows so much about...y'know. Sex and what-not. Although, you know, IRONICALLY it's so weird for me to say that word out loud. And even to write it! But I'm just fiiine with reading it. Isn't that weird? It's weird. I'm weird. OH WELL. I could have worse quirks, right? Like I could...I could like randomly hitting people. Now that's not very nice. I...I don't know anyone who does that, though, so, um, maybe not. Anyway, we moved on from that topic and just...you know, hung out. And Claire's really, really nice, you know? She's like, superduperwonderful and funny and down to earth. I have no idea why we didn't hang out more sooner!

Oh, oh, also, I spoke to Sooz today. Which was...you know, kind of embarrassing because I ended up trying to be subtle and ask her about, you know, if she had any ideas from the books she read as well or if it was just me because (besides Claire) she's the only girl I know who actually reads these types of novels, and she said something about knowing how to implement them too and...well. It was a little embarrassing when she found out I knew what she was talking about. There was that one book I read that was a little...worse than the types I usually read (and I haven't read it SINCE okay) and I totally recognised the uhh...terms she used. Dios, I'm blushing just by writing about it. But apparently they are physically possible, isn't that fascinating? I almost can't wait to get a boyfriend I DIDN'T JUST WRITE THAT. Ahem. Anywayyy. So, right, Sooz says it's perfectly normal and...yeah. I ended up telling her about Severus, too. She thinks I should like...talk to him. Me! An ickle Hufflepuff! Gosh, I'd probably get completely tongue tied and end up saying something stupid and...ay dios mio, that sounds like a really, really bad idea now and...no. Just...no, I can't do that. I can't be all confident and sexy like Sooz or Emme or whatever. I'm just Gabby. Awkward, shy, tongue-tied Gabby. Who's read one too many eroticas.

Oh well, time to finish that novel

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[li] Finish the History of Magic essay -- due tomorrow!
[/li][li] Hang out more with Claire.
[/li][li] Make sure Gideon finished his History of Magic essay, too.
[/li][li] Work on confidence.
[/li][li] Talk to Severus?
[/li][li] Find out about the Lotus position?[/li][/ul]
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translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
Ay dios mio: Oh my God.

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YOU CLOSE YOUR EYES
AND HOPE THAT THIS IS JUST IMAGINATION

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september 17th
mood: shocked

AY DIOS MIO.

THERE WAS A BOY.

AND HE WAS NAKED.

AND

HE WAS BY THE RIVER

AND!

HE!

WAS!

CUTE

NAKED!!!!

Yo no sabía qué hacer! El estaba desnudo!!!!!!!

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[li] !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!![/li][/ul]
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translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
Ay dios mio: Oh my God.
Yo no sabía qué hacer! El estaba desnudo!: I didn't know what to do! He was naked!

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BREATHE IN AND OUT
CALM DOWN

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september 17th
mood: still stunned

Did I mention he was naked?

Like completely?

...

Yes.

Well, he was.

But, you know, he also seemed quite nice and funny once he had his pants back on.

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[li] He was naked though
[/li][li] Experiment with potions to get your mind off the fact that he was...you-know-what. Not that it was a bad sight to see but uhh...anyway. Yes. Potions.[/li][/ul]
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translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly

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I GOT A POCKET
GOT A POCKETFUL OF SUNSHINE

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september 22nd
mood: optimistic

Hogsmeade week-end is soon! FINALLY!! I need a new book or two, and I have some money saved up from my last bake sale! Which was super fun, with Sooz and Gideon helping me. I think I'll have to buy a new quill when I go, too, since mine seems to be acting up since I broke it that one time. Or maybe it's just past it's age, I've had it for...a really long time. I think I'll save it in this book once (if?) I buy a new one. You know, just for keepsake. It's been through a lot of essays and notes with me! Haha. Yes, I think I'll save it. I mean, it holds a bit of sentimental value and stuff. And that might sound silly, but...I don't know. I guess I get too attached to things sometimes. Even things as silly as old quills. Maybe I'll add it to my memory box instead of this book! I mean, this diary will probably end up in my memory box anyway, so...hmm. Oh. That reminds me, I need to look up an extendable charm for the box. It starting to get really, really full (probably because I seem to think a lot of things hold value to me!) and I heard that there's a spell you could put on objects like a box or a bag or something and, because of that spell, you can put anything and everything and it would fit! Isn't that such a cool spell? I'll have to look it up next time I go to the library!

Ohh, in other news! Hogwarts now has a Quidditch team and Emmeline, of course, was made cheerleader! I've always loved Quidditch and, since I'm too tiny to play anything, plus I don't have a broom or anything, I've decided to join! I'm a bit clumsy, true, and maybe a bit too short to be a cheerleader, but I do like dancing, and I absolutely love cheering, so I guess that should be enough, right? Anyway, try outs are soon (although Emme assured me I'd probably get on the team again, but I want to try out properly, just to be fair!) Oh gosh, cheerleading and me, isn't that strange? I never thought I'd be a cheerleader. I mean, I guess it's too assuming to say I will be picked, but let's say I am...wouldn't that be weird? Shy, little, bookworm Gabby becoming a cheerleader. Way to break the stereotype, hey? Haha, I dunno. I think it'll be really fun to cheer on the team in a uniform and show true Hogwarts spirit! Cheering with pompoms and in a uniform is somehow different from cheering in the stands. You stand out. I dunno, it's just different.

Anyway! I'm off to tell Gideon about my plans to become a cheerleader and ask him what he thinks of the routine I'm going to be doing at the tryouts!

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[li] Buy a new quill(?)
[/li][li] Find the extendable(? I have no idea if that's what it's called!) charm.
[/li][li] Write to Papi about cheerleading and ask him if he's okay with it![/li][/ul]
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translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly

[Gabriella Rivera]

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JUST LIKE A PRAYER
I KNOW YOU'LL TAKE ME THERE

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september 23rd
mood: happy

I got onto the cheerleading squad!!! Isn't that awesome? Got my uniform today and everything! I actually look good and stuff, and this is so awesome! It makes me feel like I'm a part of something special, part of the school! I mean, I was already part of the school obviously since I'm a student and everything, but now it's just..more...oh I don't know, I'm part of the cheerleading team! Yaaaay! Not that many girls applied for cheerleading, really. Right now it's just me, Emme, Claire, Vanessa, Mica and Courtney! They're all super nice girls. I hope this experience will, like, bring me closer to them and stuff, because I've started to realise that I haven't really formed that many close relationships with so many people. I mean, I can only mention about four or five people off the top of my head that I'm actually really close to at Hogwarts. Emmeline, Gideon, Lyle, Stefan, Claire, Vanessa...okay, six. But still that's not very many, is it? I really need to be less shy and more outgoing. Gah. How do people do that? Other than drinking alcohol, that is, because I do not want to drink alcohol! Not to mention, at fifteen, I'm hardly of age. Plus, alcohol makes you do stupid things and stuff.

Hmm.

Well, anyway. Gideon kind-of stepped on my foot today. Not on purpose, of course not, gosh! He'd never do something like that! But, he did carry me around on his back for the rest of the day as an apology, so that was fun! I'll have to give him a massage after dinner, though, just in case I made his back ache. I mean, he keeps insisting that I'm really light and whatever (which is like an instant reminder about how tiny I am, THANKS Gideon), but still. Actually, I think I'm going to go find him and do that now before I forget.

[/b][/u]
[li] Be careful when Gideon is walking around because he tends to forget to look down.
[/li][li] Maybe invest in a bell so that he can hear me coming? Hmm.
[/li][li] Bake biscuits for Fabian and Papi because I haven't done that in a while.[/li][/ul]
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translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly

[Gabriella Rivera]

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THIS COULD BE
THE START OF SOMETHING NEW

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september 24th
mood: amused

I sort-of accused someone of being a thief today because I saw him going through Claire's purse when we went out for the Hogsmeade weekend. And it was quite awkward, really, but he left when Claire came back. He was nice. His name was Henry...something or other, I can't remember. Did he even tell me? Bah. Anyway, it was fun to hang out with Claire and stuff. Like, really, really fun. We had a really good time! Oooh, and I bought a book. Only one, though, because that was all I could afford. I gave the rest of my money to someone who asked for it. He looked really, really sad and I think he needed it more! I'll just have to stick to my quill after all. That's okay, though. Next time I save up enough, I'll just get one then. It was kind-of sad that I couldn't get anything from Honeydukes, though. I had to tell Claire that I still have some from last time and that I wasn't feeling like it. Which, you know, it was kind-of weird to tell a lie because I hate lying, but I guess I must be okay at it since she believed me. Which...isn't exactly a good thing. I kind-of feel bad now. But I just didn't want her to feel sorry for me!

Gosh, I can't believe it's already a few months into the first term back! They just like...flew by. But it's been pretty good so far! I have high hopes for this year, I really do! Maybe this could be the start of...I don't know. Me being more outgoing! Wouldn't that be cool? I might be more sociable by the end of the year! I did mention in my last entry that I need to make closer friendships, and maybe this could be my...year's resolution, sort of. My September resolution? New Year's is ages away, so I don't want to wait until then. So, yes. This is my September's resolution. Be more outgoing. Mhmmm.

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[li] Hold another bake sale? I feel bad for using up the House Elves' supply, though, so maybe I should wait a few weeks.
[/li][li] Ask Papi for some money? Ugh, I feel bad, I really do, but I know TJ's birthday is coming up and I neeed to buy him a present, ASAP!
[/li][li] Not everyone going through your friend's purse is a thief.
[/li][li] Be more outgoing!
[/li][li] ...Maybe next time, I shouldn't give all my money to those in need.
[/li][li] Give Gideon the old coin I found on the floor today when I was Claire to add to his awesome collection.[/li][/ul]
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translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly

[Gabriella Rivera]

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OFF WITH YOUR HEAD
[[HEAD'S WILL ROLL]]

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september 27th
mood: furious

AY DIOS MIO! Rita Skeeter's tabloid just came out AND EMMELINE'S IN IT!! AND NOT IN A GOOD WAY!! Rita actually....she actually calls her a SKANK! HOW DARE SHE?! I CAN'T BELIEVE HER!! THAT...THAT...PERRA!! ES UNA PERRA ESTUPIDA!!! I HATE swearing but...ugh!!! La odio tanto en este momento!!!!!!!!!! Porque haria eso??! Emmeline is the nicest person like..ever! She's one of the nicest people I've ever met!! She's always been so nice to me and I THOUGHT SHE AND RITA WERE FRIENDS?! How could Rita back stab her like that?!?! UGH. UNBELIEVABLE. She's just...so...UGH. I think I should stop writing in case I start swearing some more!

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[li] RITA SKEETER IS A PERRA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[/li][li] Avoid Severus at all costs.[/li][/ul]
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translations:
Ay dios mio: oh my God
Perra: bitch
Es una perra estupida: she's a stupid bitch *trollface*
La odio tanto en este momento: I hate her so much right now
Porque haria eso?: Why would she do that?

[Gabriella Rivera]

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YOU'RE NOT ALONE
TOGETHER WE STAND
I'LL BE BY YOUR SIDE
YOU KNOW I'LL TAKE YOUR HAND

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september 28th
mood: worried

Oh gosh, I really need to talk to Emmie. I'll bet she's horrifed. And really upset. God! Stupid Rita. I can't believe she just...UGH. Poor Emmeline. I just...bleh. I have to fiiind her. She's just...like...avoiding everyone! I only see her in classes or in the dormitory and she's either sleeping, then, or just...she gets away too quickly before I can catch her. And all I want to do is comfort her! I guess...I mean, I guess I should give her space. I just. Ugh.

Stupid Rita!

Also, I hope Severus doesn't read the tabloid. He doesn't seem like the type of person who does. Oh my God, what if he does? This is so embarrassing, ohmyGod

Oh whatever, Emmeline is the one that matters right now!

[/b][/u]
[li] FIND EMMELINE. And make brownies. For Emmeline.[/li][/ul]
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translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly