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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Feb 22, 2011 14:50:35 GMT -5
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I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU
THESE FIVE WORDS I SWEAR TO YOU
-------------------------------------------------------------------- september 31st mood: comforting 
 Well, I finally managed to check up on Emmeline. She's doing okay now. A bit better. She looks a bit better. Then again, Emmeline has always looked good, even when she's upset. She looks like one of those actresses when they cry on TV and they still manage to look all pretty, you know? I really don't know how she does it, but I guess it's an Emmeline thing. I dunno, I always look all red and puffy, like a blown up red balloon or something, when I cry. Well, anyway, she wasn't crying, thankfully, and she looked just peachy! Apparently, though, she broke up with Teddy, which is really sad because they were really cute together and I think Emmeline really, really liked him. Ugh, stupid Rita, ruining people's lives like that! Sigh. Anyway, I'm glad she's okay. I gave her a hug and my chocolate. Which isn't very yummy (the chocolate, that is, I don't think hugs can be yummy?) because it's one of my special, soy-milk chocolate due to my lactose intollerance, but she seemed to like it just fine. I'm still making her brownies though! Totally haven't forgotten about that, too. I'll give a couple to Lyle, too. Gosh, I do miss Lyle. I feel like I haven't seen him much at all since the beginning of the term, and that's just sad! Goodness, I'm not very good at this sociableness thing, am I?
[/b][/u] [li] Brownies. [/li][li] Find Lyle and give him a big hug and smooch. [/li][li] Be more sociable. [/li][li] Give Sooz her book back. [/li][li] Find out about this Jordan and Kieran and Jonathan business. I am so out of the loop, it's ridiculous.[/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Feb 22, 2011 15:15:54 GMT -5
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WHY DON'T YOU COME AND PLAY HERE?
I'M JUST SITTING ON THE SHELF
-------------------------------------------------------------------- october 5th mood: blank 
I have an incredibly boring life.
[/b][/u] [li] Extracting bubotuber pus is icky and messy. [/li][li] Dooooo somethingggg interestinggggggggg with my lifeeeeeeee.[/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Feb 22, 2011 16:12:08 GMT -5
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SHE R I C H O C H E T S
AND YOU DON'T NOTICE
-------------------------------------------------------------------- october 10th mood: insecure 
Do I have small boobs? I mean, I know I'm only fifteen and that I have time ahead of me to develop and what-not, and it's not like I'm comparing myself to those girls in Gideon's magazines or anything because that would be silly and unhealthy! Plus, Gideon assured me that they're fake and I believe him because, you know, some of the bodies I noticed were ridiculous and there is no way they could be that perfect in real, I mean those girls had absolutely no flaws and I still don't understand why someone like Gideon would enjoy that but he is still a guy and ew I don't want to think about this anymore ew he's my best friend. But...I mean. I do have comparably smaller boobs than a lot of fifteen year olds. I've never really...thought about it, to be honest. I mean, I do have boobs. Sort of. I mean, they're not really that noticeable or that big, like I said, and, they're comparably smaller than most boobs I've seen. Not that I stare at other people's (girls'?) boobs, I'm just saying, you sort of notice that kind-of thing, especially when it's kind-of like PHWOAR in your face, you know? I mean, obviously there are a lot more well-endowed girls out there and stuff but. I mean. Maybe Sev people would notice me more if I was more. Y'know. Blessed in the looks department or something.
Ugh.
I don't know.
It's times like these when I really, really miss my mami.
I'm going to go finish that Potions essay now.
[/b][/u] [li] Practice the Cheering charms. [/li][li] How expensive is a push-up bra?[/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Feb 25, 2011 9:19:05 GMT -5
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NOW THE PARTY DON'T START
TILL I WALK IN
-------------------------------------------------------------------- october 18th mood: disbelieving 
So. guess what came to me this morning by owl:
I...hardly even know Rita? I mean, I know of Rita, obviously, since she's the bi meanie who called Emmeline a skank, but...well...I bet Emme asked her to invite me. Yep, that definitely explains it. Sort of. I guess they're friends again? Maybe Rita apologised! That's nice of her! So...I guess I'm invited. And I should go, right? I mean, it's her birthday. Plus, I've never really been to a fancy party like that. And a masquerade, too! As for a present...gah. I'm broke. But. Hmm.
There's that necklace Rose gave me as a present for my last birthday. I've hardly worn it at all since I've been saving it for something special, and it's very pretty! Wouldn't that be a nice present? Yes, I think that's what I give her. Oh gosh, this is exciting! I've never been to a party before. Gosh this is...wow!
[/b][/u] [li] Wrap Rita's present. [/li][li] Find something to wear?[/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Feb 25, 2011 11:31:58 GMT -5
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AND IF I SHOULD FALL
INTO THE SKY
-------------------------------------------------------------------- october 19th mood: pessimistic 
Emmeline likes Gideon, Like, like likes him. Like, she-wants-to-be-his-girlfriend likes him. Which is...okay, I guess? I mean. I just didn't expect it, you know? Because it's Gideon and Emme. And Emmeline was always trying to set him up with me so...haha. I dunno, I guess it's just kind of weird? But not exactly in a ...bad way? I mean, she wrote to me and like told me and then she asked me if I was okay with it so of course I said I was okay with it, I mean, if they can make each other happy that's all that matters - right? Except...Except I don't know if I'm really okay with it? I mean, it's not like I'm jealous of Emmeline because I want to be with Gideon, of course not! I don't feel that way about Gideon at all! I mean, yes, I do love him, but we're just best friends. But that's the thing. He's my best friend, my first friend, and for a while there he was my only friend, so...I guess I'm just really possessive of him. Because...well, I know how this girlfriend-boyfriend thing goes. I've read about it all the time! The two best friends get together and they get their perfect happy ending and then the other best friend is just shunned or not even mentioned at the end of the story because she's not the star of the story and thus she doesn't get an ending. So Emmeline and Gideon are going to get together (of course Gideon is going to want her, who wouldn't? It's Emmeline. She's beautiful and wonderful and funny and fun and everyone loves her, so of course Gideon would, and Gideon is wonderful so Emmeline will love him too and they'll want to be together all the time so I'll barely get to see them and whenever we try to plan to get together just the three of us it'll be awkward because they'll be all lovey-dovey and I'll have to sit through that and feel like a third wheel, and then, little by little, they're going to forget all about me and I won't be the first one on Gideon's list of friends anymore because, of course, Emmeline would be first of everything and then BAM just like that I've lost two of my best friends in the whole wide world because they're in a relationship and I'm not and I depend on them so much that it's not healthy.
...Ay dios mio, I'm being pessimistic and selfish, aren't I? Sigh.
[/b][/u] [li] Be happy for Gideon and Emmeline. [/li][li] Talk to Gideon about Emmeline. [/li][li] Do not cry.[/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
Ay dios mio: Oh my God
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Feb 25, 2011 11:40:01 GMT -5
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IT'S ALWAYS COME RIGHT BACK TO THIS
PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME
-------------------------------------------------------------------- october 19th mood: sad 
I just don't want to lose him.
[/b][/u] [li] You're being ridiculous.[/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Feb 25, 2011 11:59:04 GMT -5
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AND I DON'T THINK THAT YOU KNOW
WHAT YOU'VE BEEN MISSING
-------------------------------------------------------------------- october 20th mood: determined 
Gosh, I'm being super ridiculous and selfish! I should be happy for Gideon, not upset that I might lose him! I should be making my two best friends happy! And that's exactly what I'm going to do. Tomorrow, I'll talk to Gideon and try to subtly hint that Emmeline likes him and that he should ask her out. I'm...not so good with subtlety, so we'll see how that goes. But I'll try my darnest! Because Emmeline is my best friend, and it's the least I can do for her after she's been so very nice to me all these years!
So, yes. I'll talk to Gideon.
Tomorrow.
[/b][/u] [li] Finish the Charms essay - two scrolls and it's due tomorrow!! [/li][li] Talk to Gideon, obviously. [/li][li] Write to Fabian and ask him about this whole situation?[/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Feb 26, 2011 7:07:19 GMT -5
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MATCHMAKER MATCHMAKER
MAKE ME A MATCH
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october 21st mood: pleased 
Well, I talked to Gideon today. I tried to be subtle about it, honestly I did. We started off with a game of tic tac toe (silly thing coulda won this round but, as always, he was more focused on cutting me off than actually winning) and then I tried to (subtly!) bring Emme up. I...don't think I did too well on the subtle front, to be honest. I was always pretty bad at being tricky and stuff, but...well, anyway. I guess he caught on or something because he figured out that she likes him from what I said. And it seems like he likes her back! Or, I don't know, he seemed really intent on the idea of asking her out. I told him she liked the Beatles and I guess we'll see what he does with that. I bet he'll do something really sweet! It's Gideon, so sweetness is always a given. Aww, you know, I like this idea now. I think they really would be make a cute couple! And it's not like Gideon would ever totally forget about me, right? Of course not. I'm his best friend. You don't just forget about your friends like that! Certainly not your best friend! So I really shouldn't worry about a silly thing like that!
Anyway. Fingers crossed that they get together!
[/b][/u] [li] Ask Emmeline what her absolute favorite chocolate/treat is and tell Gideon. [/li][li] Also, favorite flower. [/li][li] Complete the DADA essay about the difference between werewolves and real wolves. [/li][li] Complete the chart about moon cycles for Astronomy. [/li][li] Maybe re-think Emme's offer to set me up.[/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Feb 26, 2011 7:50:08 GMT -5
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OH, WE'RE HALF-WAY THERE
OH-OH, LIVIN' ON A PRAYER
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october 23rd mood: relieved 
Gideon asked out Emme and she said yes! And, just like I predicted, it was just the sweetest thing ever! Seriously! Okay, so we were all in Divination class and I look over to where Emme's sitting and Gideon goes up to her and, I don't know, he tells her something and then they both look up so I look up too and in the smoke stuff we were supposed to be looking at (which, by the way, I don't get at all, ugh I'm so going to fail Divination this year, I just know it!) there were two lines from that famous song by the Beatles (he remembered!) and it was like Oh, please, say to me, you'll let me be your man. And please, say to me, you'll let me hold your hand. It was SO perfect and sweet! And I could see that Emmeline was nodding and then afterwards Gideon actually told me that they ARE together and gosh this is amazing! See, Diary? I told you they'd get together! And they do make a totally adorable couple and you can just see how happy Gideon and Emmeline are and gosh I really do hope they work out! I mean, what if they get married and stuff? I know they're still fifteen and, realistically, too young for this stuff - but still! Some people are like that. You stick with your high school sweetheart sometimes, and it's super sweet because they've known each other for so long so...I guess they're going to skip all the awkward introductory stuff and get right to the relationship-y stuff. I read somewhere in a magazine that a relationship has a better chance at succeeding if they're friends first, and Emmeline and Gideon are BEST friends. Oooh, I wonder when they'll kiss! I know people don't usually kiss on the first date, but that's because they don't really know each other and, like I said, they obviously do! Ah, that's exciting! I mean, I know Emmeline already had her first kiss like ages ago (although I totally had mine first, I mean, no one beats a kiss-at-ten-years-old and I doubt she got hers when she was nine! Hehe), but still, it's there first kiss! I'll bet it's sweet. They're going to be a very sweet couple, you know? I can just tell. Maybe I'm not so bad at Divinitation after all! Haha.
Gosh, I totally want to write to Fabian and tell him now! I bet he'd be proud. See, Gideon? You don't neeed tips from your big brother to get girls, you're totally good at the romance stuff all alone! Gosh. This is great, isn't it? My two best friends, happy together. Yes, this is fantastic. I wonder where he'll take her on her first date! I bet it'll be someplace really, really nice. Gideon is thoughtful like that.
I can totally tell Emmeline hasn't gone to bed yet. I bet she's all super-duper psyched and hyper. I know I would be! I am for her! Actually, I think I'll go and perform my best friendly duty and squeal with her a little over Gideon's adorableness. More later!
[/b][/u] [li] Figure out this smoke stuff from Divination because it might be on the exam. [/li][li]  ? Did I have any other homework?? GAH! I can't remember![/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Feb 26, 2011 8:05:37 GMT -5
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INSTEAD OF MAKIN' ME BETTER
YOU KEEP MAKIN' ME ILL
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october 24th mood: sick 
eurgh. i think i'm sick. i feel sick. i can't even write in capital letters. i'm so tired. my head hurts. it's too early to be awake. breakfast isn't for another hour or two. ew food i can't even think about food. i might throw up at the table ewwww. so tired. i think i caught what stefan had. but that was two weeks ago right? ugh. sickness go awayyyyyyy you poopy face.
[/b][/u] [li] bleurgh.[/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
N/A
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Feb 26, 2011 8:35:18 GMT -5
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WAKE UP IN THE MORNING
FEELING LIKE . . .
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october 24th mood: groggy 
Didn't go to any classes. Slept the whole day instead. It's now seven p.m. I feel a bit better, though, but my head feels heavy from sleeping so much. Bleh. I'm hungryyyy but I'm too tired to get up. More sleep, yes? Yes, yes.
[/b][/u] [li] Sleep.[/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
N/A
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Feb 26, 2011 9:34:44 GMT -5
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THE DOG DAYS ARE OVER
THE DOG DAYS ARE DONE
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october 25th mood: rejuvenated 
Wow, I think I slept for, like, the whole day. But apparently it worked more than medicine could because I feel a LOT better! Good enough to go to class today, definitely! Just gotta wait it's breakfast time since it's, like, five in the morning and everyone is still in bed. I think I'll read until then. Yes. I still have no idea what Joelle and Alexander are up to, so that's exciting!
[/b][/u] [li] Ask Gideon Emmeline Stefan what I missed in classes yesterday because I don't want to bother the happy couple! [/li][li] Try to catch a glimpse of Severus because that should be enough to make me bounce back completely. [/li][li] ................. Get over Severus.[/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Mar 3, 2011 10:25:02 GMT -5
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I LIVE THROUGH YOU
YOU LOOKED THROUGH ME
-------------------------------------------------------------------- october 26th mood: guilty 
I feel like I haven't talked to or cuddled with Gideon in days. Ditto Emmeline. I never realised how I always split my free time between these two and hang out so little with my other friends. Does that make me a bad friend? Yes, yes it makes me a very bad friend. Especially towards people like Lyle, who's supposed to be one of my best friends. And yet, I haven't been treating him like that at all! We haven't hung out in ages and...ugh. I don't know what's wrong with me. It's just so stupid. I'm so stupid because I shouldn't be feeling like this...I don't even know what I'm feeling like, it's just...I don't even understand because it's not like I'm depressed or anything, at least, because I'm really not! I have friends, I do, I mean, usually there are people around me and I do talk to people in like...cheerleading and stuff, I just can't figure out why sometimes I feel so horrible, especially if I see Emmeline and Gideon together. And it's not like I'm jealous of Emmeline or anything because I don't want Gideon for myself, it's not like that at all, and it's not like they're ignoring me much I guess...I guess I'm just jealous of what they have because I want it too?
I guess I've never really thought hard about wanting a boyfriend. I mean, I've never really wanted one, you know? Well, okay, that's a lie, I do want one, but I mean I'd never been really upset over not having one because I always seemed to crush on unattainable guys - Severus Snape is obviously a prime example, and then I liked Gideon back when we were kids and, hah, everyone was unattainable back then, weren't they? And then for a little while there was Chace Maier and I'm pretty sure he was dating someone back then and ay Dios mio what is wrong with me? Ugh. Whatever. It shouldn't matter. My friendship with Lyle and all my other friends who I am neglecting, that's what should matter to me right now!
Maybe I'm just feeling guilty?
[/b][/u] [li] Stop being jealous of Emme and Gideon's relationship. [/li][li] Find Lyle ASAP. [/li][li] Finish the essay on Vanishing Spells[/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
Ay dios mio: Oh my God.
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Mar 3, 2011 10:30:24 GMT -5
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LONELY LONELY LONELY LONELY
DON'T YOU GO CHANGING FOR ME
-------------------------------------------------------------------- october 27th mood: lonely 
I think I've figured it out.
[/b][/u] [li] I don't know how to stop feeling this way.[/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Mar 17, 2011 16:04:07 GMT -5
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SLOWDANCE ON THE INSIDE
-------------------------------------------------------------------- october 28th mood: okay 
Gosh, I really don't know how Stefan does it. Like, he just knows whenever you're upset. It's like he has a sadness radar or something. Or maybe he's just like that with me. I really don't know, but he picked up immediately on the fact that I wasn't feeling very well. Seriously, though, it must be a radar because I tried to make him believe that I was completely fine and he wasn't buying it! Then again, that might have more to do with the fact that I completely suck at lying and stuff than a radar. Well, anyway, point is; he knew I wasn't okay, and he kept asking about it, so I ended up telling him. I didn't tell him everything, though. I mean, Stefan is one of my really good friends and I tell him mostly everything but...I don't know. I just feel really stupid, telling him that I feel lonely because I don't have a boyfriend. I don't know, it just seems stupid, you know? Anyway. I told him I was feeling shunned by Emmeline and Gideon, which is true. It's just not all of it.
Well, anyway, he was really sweet about it, as always. And made me feel better. And then somehow the subject shifted to Lyle! Apparently, Stefan and Lyle met (I can't remember if they knew each other from before or not) and they're friends now! Which is awesome, of course. I love it when my friends end up being friends with my...other...friends...was that correct English? Well, whatever, it makes sense to me and that's all that really matters. Oh, on a related note (related to the earlier Lyle-and-Stefan-are-now-friends thing, I mean), we all hung out together today! Finally getting to hang out with Lyle and Stefan was awesome, as always. I really did miss them a whole lot! I honestly should prioritize because, really, seeing or talking to them both once in a blue moon just isn't enough! Besides, maybe if I just...focus more on my friendships and stuff, then I won't have to feel so lonely all the time. That could work, right? Gosh, I really don't know. I don't know anything about this stuff. I kind-of want to ask someone older, someone that might know, like Sooz or something, but I don't know. I'm still kind-of embarrassed. Besides, what would Sooz know about being lonely? She knows how to get a boyfriend, and she's almost never single! Which, you know, isn't much of a surprise, because she's so pretty and lovable. I guess for some people, it just comes naturally.
[/b][/u] [li] You don't have to be alone to feel lonely. Sometimes you can be around people and still feel lonely. [/li][li] Hang out with Lyle and Stefan more. [/li][li] Figure something out about this loneliness thing, because I don't think I like feeling this terrible![/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly.
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? Did I have any other homework?? GAH! I can't remember![/li][/ul]