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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Apr 4, 2011 12:32:34 GMT -5
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WITH YOUR FEET IN THE AIR
AND YOUR HEAD ON THE GROUND
-------------------------------------------------------------------- october 30th mood: tired 
 Family Fright Fest weekend is almost over. Papi couldn't make it because he couldn't get away from work since he's been taking on extra shifts and he gets tired, and my Tia still gets kind-of freaked out by all this magic stuff, so she couldn't come, either. It's okay, though, I mainly hung out with Gideon and stuff. Still, it wasn't really the same since I really miss my Papi and...ugh, oh well. I just really miss my family and I wish my Papi could have made it. But it's okay, I'll get to see him during Christmas! And that's only two months away! I'm sure those weeks will just breeze by, right? Mhmm, right. Anyway, I'm tired, and I need to look good for the party tomorrow! Not that I'll be doing much, since it's not like I'm going with anyone or anything, and it's not like I can be a third wheel to Gideon and Emme because that's awkward and...oh well. We'll see what happens when I get there.
[/b][/u] [li] Ask Emmie if she'd help do my hair tomorrow. [/li][li] Practice walking around in my shoes. [/li][li] Don't forget Rita's present![/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Apr 4, 2011 12:36:47 GMT -5
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Apr 8, 2011 14:47:02 GMT -5
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SWEET DREAMS ARE
MADE OF THIS
-------------------------------------------------------------------- november 1st mood: pensive 
So, it's a new month. And I've been thinking...why not start off fresh! With my new resolution to be more sociable and stuff, I think a new image would be nice, too! So, I've been thinking of cutting my hair! I've kept it long for so long, I think a change would be nice. I mean, I'm not going to cut it that short, more like shoulder-length, and maybe get a cute fringe? I've aways wanted one! And I think I'd look nice with one! I think I'll ask Emmeline first before I totally decide, though. I mean, if a fringe is cut incorrectly, it could be really annoying! And I know that you can always fix it with magic and stuff, but still, I want to do it right this time around. So, I'll ask Emmeline, and maybe she'll help me decide what length to cut it to and stuff. Emmie was always good at this stuff, better than I ever was. And I love my hair, not to sound vain, so I don't want to mess it up! So...yes. I shall ask Emmeline about it tomorrow.
This has been a diary entry about my hair! Haha, gosh, I do need to find something more interesting to do with my life, don't I? >.<
[/b][/u] [li] Ask Emmeline about my hair. [/li][li] Maybe try it out with a spell first and then properly cut it? [/li][li] Finish Astronomy homework.[/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Jun 6, 2011 12:58:45 GMT -5
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LET YOU REST YOUR HEAD ON ME
IF THAT'S WHAT YOU NEED
-------------------------------------------------------------------- november 2nd mood: nervous 
Well, I talked to Emmeline about getting the haircut, and she completely supports the idea! She thinks it'll look totally cute on me, the shorter hair and the bangs, I mean. I don't know, I hope so. I haven't ever been big on change...but! This is for the good! I'm hoping maybe changing my hair would help with the whole trying-to-change-my-personality bit. I mean, I know it technicallywon't since, really, hair has nothing to do with personality, but it'll just give me a nice edge, you know? Ugh, I don't know, I just really want to change things up in my life, and I guess hair is a good, first step! Right? I don't know. I have to go meet up with Emme, since she wants to do it right now and all. I hope I don't regret it. I love my hair. And, I mean, I can't always grow it back using magic, but that's not really permanent and...yeah, I just hope it was the right choice to make. Anyway, gotta go, bye, Diary!
[/b][/u] [li] not enough time![/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Jun 6, 2011 13:22:02 GMT -5
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I AM WHATEVER YOU SAY I AM
-------------------------------------------------------------------- november 2nd mood: okay 
It's done. My hair is officially about six inches shorter. It reaches, like, somewhere just below my shoulders. I also have a fringe across my forehead now! Emmeline insists it supercute, and I think it does look nice, although I feel all self-conscious about it. I haven't had a fringe in years, and, I don't know. I think it makes me look much younger and I can't decide if that's contradictory to where I'm going with this whole personality-altering thing. Still, my hair is also much neater now. All the split ends are gone, thank goodness, and Emme did a swell job at making sure that they were all even. 'Course, that was probably courtesy of the wand, but I'm sure if she didn't have a steady hand it would have come out a complete mess! Also, she's teaching me how to curl my hair, since my new hair looks much better when it has a slight wave to it than when it's in its natural, straight state. I still haven't shown Gideon or anyone else yet, except for my dormmates. They all so it looks really nice, though, so maybe I shouldn't be nervous. I hope Gideon likes it, too!
Anyway, on another note, I'm almost positive that Severus glanced my way during yesterday's potions club. I mean, I'm sure he could have been looking at the boy a few seats away, who was mucking about - actually, he did look a little angry afterwards, but I'm sure his eyes sort of skidded past me, which means he did see me and I'm not invisible to him after all!. I can't be sure, though, and I didn't want to ask Rose - who was sitting next to me at the time, see - because she was too busy flailing over her potion, and I couldn't check to make sure because, well, Rose was flailing over her potion so I had to help her! Oh, and then her potion spilled over and Severus came to our table and I actually got to see him up-close and he spoke to us, well, okay, he spoke to Rose and he didn't even really look at me but he was, like, right there and I could have reached out and touched him, he was that close! ...and by touched him, I mean that in a completely non-creepy way, okay? I don't want to touch him...creepily. except in my dreams, apparently. Dios, I always sound like such a smitten little girl whenever the subject of Severus Snape comes up. I don't even know why! I mean...okay, yes, I do know why, I do have theeeee biggest crush on him. I think everyone but him know by now. Unless...unless he does know and he's just ignoring me or, worse, he thinks I'm some stupid girl and that I'll get over it or he's just really creeped out by this fifteen year old who's completely enamored by him and oh God what if I freak him out?!?!?! Or, worse, what if he just doesn't take me seriously?? Is that why he barely even looks at me? Because he thinks I'm stupid or - or weird or - or - gah. No. I will not get upset over this. I...I refuse to. This is so silly! It's been over year. That's AGES. Emmeline has had three - or more, actually! - different boyfriends in that space of time.
What's wrong with me, Diary?
[/b][/u] [li] Give Gideon back his quill [/li][li] Get over Severus Snape [/li][li] Get over Severus Snape [/li][li] Get over Severus Snape [/li][li] Get over Severus Snape [/li][li] Get over Severus Snape [/li][li] Get over Severus Snape [/li][li] Get over Severus Snape[/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
Dios: God
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Jun 6, 2011 14:04:08 GMT -5
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YOU JUST KEEP ME
HANGIN' ON
-------------------------------------------------------------------- november 3rd mood: frustrated 
Seriously, Gabriella. ¿Que te pasa?
[/b][/u] [li] Get over Severus Snape [/li][li] I miss my long hair already [/li][li] History of Magic essay is due in two days [/li][li] Finish Paris' potions essay - due tomorrow! [/li][li] Ask Rose for her Transfiguration notes - I don't understand any of it, and that essay of his is due on Thursday[/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
¿Que te pasa?: What's wrong with you?
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Jun 7, 2011 14:09:32 GMT -5
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I'M JUST A TEENAGE DIRTBAG BABY
-------------------------------------------------------------------- november 4th mood: complacent 
Lyle likes Stefan. Stefan as in Stefan Capper. My Stefan Capper! Or, well, not my, but I mean the Stefan that I know. As in, Ravenclaw Stefan. Stefan with the memory problems Stefan. Stefan Capper. Lyle Malarkey likes Stefan Capper! Who...well, I thought he was straight, but I mean..okay, so yes, I guess he's straight since he has that date with Vanessa or whatever and yeah okay he's straight but Lyle still likes him. I mean, I don't blame him since Stefan is quite likeable and stuff. Although, I've never liked him that way, not even attracted to him at all to be honest. I mean, he's good looking and all, but he's always been a bit too...feminine...looking? I mean, no offense to him, of course, and it's not a bad thing, I guess, but I'm just more attracted to more...ah...rugged...looking? Or...not as...gah! Then again, Severus isn't exactly what you'd call rugged, so..................................I'm just not attracted to Stefan like that, okay? But. Um. Anyway. As I was saying! Lyle likes Stefan, and he was upset because he apparently told him and now he feels embarrassed, so I cuddled with him on the couch. The poor guy. It must be hard to be the only openly homosexual boy in Hogwarts.
...Well, actually, I don't know if he is. I mean, I haven't met all the boys in Hogwarts, barely met any, really. But I guess Lyle hasn't met any either? And...I dunno. Maybe...hmm. There was that one time that Paris seemed to sway in...that...direction. I mean, he talked about Gideon's......uh. I don't know if I want to relive that conversation. But he might have been just crude, because he was saying something about it being impressive compared to Severus and I remember getting really, really mad at him because he also said something about "lowing myself to that standard" and I would most definitely NOT be lowering my standards if I were to get with Gideon! Gideon is a wonderful young boy and any girl would be LUCKY to have him on his arm. As it is, Emmeline is that girl and she happens to have awesome taste in men so...YEAH. Gah, now I'm all mad at him again for saying that. I didn't speak to him for a whole week straight after that! And he got a T on an essay so I felt bad and started helping him again. Anyway! Back to Lyle.
So yeah, he basically wants to die of embarrassment (which I can totally relate to, seeing as I have been quite a few embarrassing situations myself!), but I think when I talked to him I helped him see the light (sorta!) and now he's okay again. I think. I dunno we mostly just cuddled.
[/b][/u] [li] Lyle likes my new hair [/li][li] Gideon thought it was weird at first, but he likes the bangs. He likes long hair better, though [/li][li] Ask Rose about Transfiguration notes because I stilllll don't get it and Paris' essay is TOMORROW.[/li][li] Fabian. Cookies. Soon![/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Jun 9, 2011 8:46:18 GMT -5
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Jun 9, 2011 8:46:49 GMT -5
dskfjg this is reserved as well
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Jun 9, 2011 9:19:10 GMT -5
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ROLLING IN THE DEEP
-------------------------------------------------------------------- november 7th mood: ditzy 
Oh gosh, I feel so embarrassed! I wrote to Fabian, sent him cookies and everything, and in the end it didn't even get to him! No, apparently the school owl got lost or something because, insteand, it ended up going to someone called Dante Mulciber. I was so mortified, Diary! I mean, I think there was some personal stuff in that letter! I don't know if he read it or not, but still. I dunno. Anyhow, he wrote back to me. He was very nice about it, though. Didn't even laugh at me or anything! Or, well, not obviously. I suppose you can't tell through a letter if someone is laughing at you unless they write something like "haha" right? I still don't know if I should write back to him or not. He seemed...really, really nice. I mean, he did tell me to feel free to write back to him, after all. And I...I think I will write back to him. I don't know if he'll write back, but I think...I think he actually might! Or maybe I'm just being too optimistic. I always am, aren't I? Haha, oh well. I think I'll write to him anyway! I'm bored and kind of lonely he says he's Fabian's friend! So, yes, I think I'll go write to him now.
[/b][/u] [li] Give Paris his Potions essay [/li][li] When you write to Fabian, write the address very clearly [/li][li] Practice Engorgio[/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Jun 9, 2011 12:10:02 GMT -5
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SHE WANT THAT LOVEY DOVEY
THAT KISS-KISS
-------------------------------------------------------------------- november 9th mood: uncomfortable 
Well. That was...really weird. Like, really, really weird. So I was in Paris' dormitory, helping him with his homework (well, really I was doing it for him because he said he needed to rest) and then suddenly he tells me he's bored and asks me if I want to make out! And I...well, I might have said yes. Well, okay, I did say yes. I couldn't help it! He was looking at me like that and I never know how to say no to anyone, anyway! So...I dunno. I just said yes. And then...well, we snogged, obviously. It was kind of...well, okay it was really nice. Not that I have much to compare to since my last kiss was with Gideon and we were, like, ten or eleven or something. But he was quite the phenomenal snogger, to be honest. A little handsy, though. I mean, he um tried to grab my butt and then I freaked out and almost fell off the bed. Hah. That was embarrassing. But I couldn't help it! He was just...trying to...y'know. Maybe it was because I bit his lip. I didn't mean to do that! I just thought...I don't know, I read somewhere that boys liked that, but he got kind-of stiff and groaned when I did it so maybe not. Unless he did like it and that was a positive reaction...ah well. We stopped after that and I went back to doing his homework. Um, hopefully that never happens again? Although it was nice, I suppose, in a oh-hi-your-mouth-is-on-mine-and-your-tongue-is-trying-to-get-into-my-mouth way.
Also, Danny Mulciber is a very nice young man indeed! He asked me if I would send him a picture, because he wants to see if he remembers me. I'm thinking of sending him the one Gideon took of me last summer in his yard. It's one of my favourites! I actually think I look kind-of pretty in it, and that doesn't happen that often, so! Anyway, I'm going to go respond to his letter now. Tootles, Diary!
[/b][/u] [li] Make Fabian cookies tomorrow [/li][li] Buy a new ink pot - I'm running out of orange ink! [/li][li] Ask Gideon if he'd like it if a girl bit his lip during snogging? er too awkward.[/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Jun 15, 2011 11:50:50 GMT -5
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NOW YOU'RE IN
YOU CAN'T GET OUT
-------------------------------------------------------------------- november 12th mood: hungry 
I FINALLY wrote to Fabian and sent him cookies - and this time I got the RIGHT address, thankfull, 'cause he wrote me back and, yeah, it was him. He ate most of the cookies at once! I knew I should have sent them separately. Honestly, that boy man young man has no self-control what-so-ever! Hmph. He also says that training is going well and that he's being careful. I'm glad. I get really worried about him sometimes, you see. I dunno, I just don't want him to get hurt! I mean, what if he does get hurt? His mother would be so upset! And his sister! And Gideon! And me! This auror business is very dangerous, after all! And if he gets hurt, who'll take care of him?? Molly is busy with her children, and apparently she's expecting again! And his mother can't take care of him on her own, she'll be too stressed out!...Okay, okay I'm exaggerating. I'm sure he'll be fine. I mean, Fabian is strong. Look at all that muscle! Of course he's strong! He can take care of himself! I just...I hope nothing bad happens to him, that's all. I'm praying for him every night before I go to bed, but you really never know what could happen! I mean, in the blink of an eye, he could get hurt and then what?!
...I'm worrying too much, aren't I? Sigh. I do that all the time. I'm sure Fabian will be wonderful and he'll be the best auror there ever was. And then when I graduate and Gideon becomes an Auror, too, I'm going to be a Healer, but if they fight in the war I'll be one of those on-the-field Healers, y'know? Because they have to need Healers on hand that can fix people up! That's how it works in muggle wars and stuff, I wonder if it works the same here. At the very least I'd make sure to teach Gideon and Fabian basic healing stuff. I don't know if they teach them that in Auror training. Probably be the first time I actually teach Fabian something! Unless I have before, I can't really remember, but meh. Anyhow! I have to run off to dinner now, I'm super duper hungry.
[/b][/u] [li] Write back to Danny [/li][li] Give Rose her notes back! [/li][li] History of Magic essay, two rolls of parchment, due after tomorrow![/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Jul 2, 2011 12:13:41 GMT -5
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I DON'T KNOW WHERE WE'RE GOING
BUT I KNOW WHERE WE'VE BEEN
-------------------------------------------------------------------- november 14th mood: thoughtful 
I caught Stefan during Transfiguration class today. Questioned him a bit about Lyle. To be honest, I feel kind-of bad for putting him on the spot like that. To be completely honest, I was kind-of hoping he would say that he was gay. I know, I know, it's very silly. It's not like Stefan has ever shown any interest in boys, and he had that date with Vanessa (which didn't go too well, apparently maybe there's still hope). But anyway, he told me flat-out that, no, he wasn't gay. Which is too bad because, really, I think Stefan and Lyle would have made an adorable couple! I mean, they compliment each other! And not just looks-wise either, but personality wise! Stefan is all shy and stuff, and Lyle is so not and - oh, did I write this already before ? I feel like I did, but I can't remember. Well, anyway. They'd be soooo cute together! Can you imagine? I can! But, well, except for the itsy, bitsy....okay, huge issue that Stefan is not gay. Which, you know, is such a shame, because they'd be such an adorable couple. Sigh. Anyway, I'm hanging out with him, Lyle and Imogen after I meet up with Danny at Hogsmeade! That ought to be fun!
Also, it seems that whatever I'm feeling is always written all over my face, because this time Harlem was the one asking! And I don't even know her that well! Which, I feel kind-of bad about because she's actually really, really sweet, and I really like her. But I told her about Gideon and Emmeline and how I'm feeling kind-of ignored and lonely and stuff, and she was really nice about it! She, too, encouraged me to talk to them. And I really do think I should just do it. I mean, they would want to know about it, and I need to stop procrastinating about it, otherwise I'll never do it and then it might get worse and they might end up getting hurt! And I definitely don't want to hurt anyone, much less Gideon adn Emmeline. So yes, I will do it...sometime. Sometime soon. I mean, if enough people are suggesting it, it must be the best idea to just tell them, right?
Right?
I sure hope so.
[/b][/u] [li] Tell Gideon and Emmeline how I feel~ about their relationship [/li][li] Hang out more often with Harlem [/li][li] Write back to Fabian [/li][li] Finish Paris' two essays (one for Charms, one for Defense Against the Dark Arts - ask for help on the DADA one? Possibly from Lyle? Or Fabian?) [/li][li] Work on hiding my feelings better?[/li][/ul] [/blockquote] [/blockquote][/color][/font] translations:
Carinosamente: lovingly
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Jul 2, 2011 12:50:50 GMT -5
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IT DOESN'T FEEL A THING
LIKE F A L L I N G
-------------------------------------------------------------------- november 15th mood: distressed 
I -- I did something really, really stupid last night. I - was reading my novel by the forest and I lost track of time and it got dark and then - and then this wolf came out and he...it was limping and I felt sorry for it, of course I did, because it looked really hurt. And - and I followed it out and - and - it was a werewolf and - and -
I - I think I almost died.
I can't - I just - I -
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Post by Gabriella Rivera on Jul 2, 2011 13:39:44 GMT -5
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WHAT HAVE I D O N E?
-------------------------------------------------------------------- november 15th mood: angry 
It was so stupid. I can't believe I did it. It was so stupid. Why did I follow it? I should have known better! No wonder Gideon was so mad at me. God, why am I so stupid? And now Gideon is worried about me, and Fabian just wrote me a letter and he yelled so much in it, I mean all he used was capital letters, practically, and I can't blame either of them because they have every right to be mad. I'm mad at myself! I just - what is wrong with me?! It was a freaking wolf. I followed a freaking wolf into the Forbidden forest! Who does that?! Gariella Rivera, apparently. I just wish I hadn't been there at all. Then I wouldn't have made Gideon and Fabian worry so much and I just - ugh. UGH. I can't even write in here anymore, I'm so angry with myself!
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