* hello, i love you

[Emmeline Vance]

[Emmeline Vance]

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july 22

feeling: accomplished

I've acquired you, a diary, so that I can write down my thoughts, feelings, and the things that happen in my day-to-day life and then I can look back on them and laugh, cry, and remember what my life used to be like. Because I'll always want to remember that; and then I can show my children this and then my grandchildren so they can see how amazing I was as a fifteen year old.

Anyway, so I'm starting as soon as term starts at Hogwarts, where I'll be going into my fifth year! Maybe I should start by listing a few facts about life right now. I'm Emmeline Vance, of course, but my friends call me Emme. I just turned fifteen about a month ago, on June 27th, and I'm in Hufflepuff. I've dated a few guys that I may or may not name later on, and just broke up with Kieran Sullivan before the summer, cause it just wasn't going to work out. Been hanging out with Max and Julia during the summer, and wrote to a couple of Hogwarts friends.

Can't wait for school to start, I've already bought my supplies and done all my homework, of course.

Much love,

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[Emmeline Vance]

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july 23

feeling: giggly

I lied.

Term hasn't started and yet I'm writing again. It doesn't matter, I can do whatever I want with you. Just came back from getting ice cream with Max. I love him, did you know that? He's so cute and so sweet and so adorable and he knew my favorite flavour and got it for me and then we started being all cute and I got ice cream on his nose and then he got it on mine and then he dabbed ice cream on my lower lip and I pretended to gasp in mock anger and he apologized and said he'd get it off for me and did...with his tongue,

aaaand then we ended up kissing. Just kissing, don't worry. It's not wrong is it? This summer love that I have with Max. It's not wrong that as soon as I go to Hogwarts I play the field, and then come back to his arms when spring ends. We agreed that it was fine, but I still have this nagging feeling inside me that it's not 100% faithful. We're not really dating or anything, though, so it can't honestly be disloyalty.

Autumn's coming fast this year. The leaves are turning red and gold and orange and my back yard's gorgeous. That's where I am right now. Got inspired and still giddy from Max-influence, so I'm all poetically sitting against the oak tree behind my house, writing in you.

One month and four days until Hogwarts!

Until then,

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[Emmeline Vance]

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july 24

feeling: excited

I’M HAVING MY BIRTHDAY PARTY!

Not that it’s such a big deal. After all, I have one every year, but still. My parents surprised me this morning. They had everything I told them I wanted ready and said that the date was going to be August 10th. That’s in two weeks! The theme is black and white and I’m going to be wearing this gorgeous blue dress, I think. Still have to decide on that. Anyway, I’m seriously excited.

I have the invitations ready, too. Really pretty with a pink floral design on the top. I’ll write out the addresses to all those whom I want to invite and then send them off later. Finally I’ll get to see people from Hogwarts! Not that I haven’t been having fun with my muggles ;) but it’s still refreshing. I’m not inviting any of them to the party, though, it’s hard enough trying to keep my witch-ness away from them, without having to conceal one hundred of us. Besides, I already celebrated with them on my real birthday, which was exactly a month ago.

I’ll update later with the people who RSVP’d. Can’t wait for the party!

xoxo,

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july 25

feeling: pleased

I feel so loved, seriously. It’s been less than 24 hours since I sent out all the owls to the guests for my birthday bash and I’ve already gotten six replies! Again, I feel so loved, of course. All my best friends were the first to reply, as well as Kieran, and Rita Skeeter, whom I invited because she’s the most popular girl at school and if she comes, it’s going to be so much better, and she’s also one of my fashion bffs.

I am sort of confused, though, that they all wrote Happy Birthday on their replies. Of course that’s what they should do, common courtesy and all, but don’t they know it was June 27th? Yes, of course they do. I did get all those birthday wishes on that day. Oh, well, double ‘Happy Birthday’s. All the better for me.

By the way, I’m going to keep all these. Seriously. I have a thing for reminiscing and letters, etc.

xoxo,

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july 26

feeling: lonely

Iris is seriously starting to hate me now.

I’ve written, apart from all the invitations to the party, a letter to Jules, Chace, and Milo, the poor baby needs to rest her wings. Milo still hasn’t replied, for some unknown reason (he’ll get it from me when he finally does), but Jules and Chace have. Jules is apparently dating Wes Carrington! He graduated last year...but is like, a death eater or something. I’m not sure if he’s good news for Juliette. Je suis très inquiété pour elle. But alas, it’s her choice of life, and I’m not going to interfere. And I extended the invitation for my party to him, too. Thought it was right. Anyway, Chace also told me that he’s in a relationship with someone from Hogwarts that’s in our year! And he won’t tell me who she is. Friend, much?

I am so going to find out. I’m not jealous at all. All right, fine, I am. But just a little bit, I’m not usually jealous. Chace is just one of my closest guy friends so it’s natural that I feel protective over him, right?

Am I the only one that’s lonely this summer? Max doesn’t count.

Wondering...

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july 26

feeling: bouncy

Just an update to show how excited I am for the party.

I got more replies today! Chace (after replying to my owl, of course), Amelia Bones (this random Ravenclaw girl that I don’t mind), Jada said she wasn’t coming, too bad...wonder why. Noah Orchard also replied! Oh my God, he’s so hot! I can’t believe he actually wrote me a letter...kind of. Still! I’m definitely keeping that one forever. And he said he’d be there to bat away the drooling boys. That was a compliment, definitely. He thinks I’m hot (course I knew that already, but still, have him say it is a huge deal). Oh, and Isabelle Laurentine, Hufflepuff, a year older. She’s with Noah. Hmph. Anyway, that’s five more replies in one day!

I honestly can’t wait. My mum brought the food menu for me today, and it’s going to be delicious. The party’s taking up most of our garden, and it’s still gigantic. That’s what I love about living in a mansion, practically. It’s huge, vast, spacious. Just perfect for part-ays!

Totally excited!

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july 27

feeling: jealous

CHACE IS DATING AUDREY BINGBLOTT.

HE'S FREAKING GOING OUT WITH AUDREY FREAKING BINGBLOTT. CAN YOU BELIEVE THE IDIOT? THEIR PARENTS SET THEM UP OR SOMETHING EQUALLY STUPID LIKE THAT AND THEY APPARENTLY 'LIKED EACH OTHER' AND NOW THEY'RE GOING OUT. HOW COULD CHACE DO THIS TO ME? HOW COULD HE SERIOUSLY GO AHEAD AND DATE THE ONE GIRL HE KNOWS I HONESTLY HATE? HUH? HOW COULD HE!?

AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Okay, I'm past yelling now. But seriously! What the hell is going through his mind? How could he like the likes of her? She's fake! Egotistical! Mean! Urgh!

I can't deal with this, I promised him I would but I can't, I can't, I CAN'T! I have to break them up. Somehow. I must... this requires planning. So expect lots of plans later on.

As a matter of fact, I already have one.

PLANS GAACTBUBSABADDH

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(get Audrey and Chace to break up because she's evil and doesn't deserve him)

A. The Sensible One: do something so that Chace sees Audrey in a really bad light and he decides that she's honestly not worth it and breaks up with her.

B. The Sly One: find another girl that's perfect for Chace and shove her in his face so he realizes that she's the one and breaks up with Audrey.

C. The Mean One: shove some hot guy in Audrey's face and 'accidentally' have Chace pass by and see her cheating on him, therefore he breaks up with her.

D. The Slutty One: anonymously write Audrey a note saying to meet Chace here and there, then I come up and as soon as she's in sight kiss him or something and then she breaks up with him.

I shall write later on to see if I've decided on either of these. I have to consult somebody. Juliette or something...I can't honestly deal with this alone.

Way to make my life complicated, Chace Maier.

Freaking out,

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july 30

feeling: pretty happy

More replies! Jordan, of course - I was expecting her to be the first to RSVP but perhaps she was busy, of course, nothing else should deprive her from the pleasure of telling me she'd be there. Also, Milo Whittle, this dyslexic guy in my year, really cute, really sweet, and Bella Swan (seventh year) said she couldn't come, but very kindly bought me a book about photography! I'll be exploring that later. Vi also replied! I'm so glad she can come, and Aidan, Fi's brother. Kasey Korin, a year younger, said she'd be there, too, Cam ditto, and finally Alessandra De Luca (I think she's into Aidan? Heard that somewhere...).

That's more than half! Some people I think are away on a trip somewhere so they probably wouldn't have gotten my letter, or maybe are too busy to reply? I don't know, either way, my best friends are coming as well as quite a few very hot guys, and the soul of the party, Rita Skeeter. It'll be a blast.

Eleven days until the party! All the decorations and lighting have been brought in - to those purebloods that have never experienced muggle parties, it'll be astounding. I've got multicolored strobe lights and a fog machine that just came out and a huge disco ball to hang in the center.

Woohoo!

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july 31

feeling: chipper

Oh, my god! You'll never believe what J wrote to me about today. I can hardly believe it myself. Not really, though - I should have expected something like that soon. Just not with J!

Anyway, she wrote to me saying that she'd met Kieran at some hospital the other day and they'd gotten talking and ...wait for it...

He'd asked her out.

I mean, yeah, go right ahead, Kieran, why don't you? It's not like you just broke up with her best friend two months ago. No, not at all. What the hell, right? I mean, it's not like I have any feelings left for him besides like...attraction and all, but still...I didn't expect him to have moved on so fast! (Not that I haven't but that's not the point). Anyway, J's my best friend and now that I think about it, they do make quite a cute couple, so it's not like I have a problem with it - not at all. I want her to be happy, and if it's him she wants to be happy with, then who am I to deny her of that? I told her so and told her I'd also be waiting at her house for when she comes back so we can talk about it.

I plan to stick to that promise.

Oh, well, life goes on, I guess.

Hmm...

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august 9

feeling: yikes

Do you know what I just found out?

It's totally screwed up all my ideas about my singing and my voice and all. Honestly, I feel so let down. People should be warned about this stuff...

Apparently, your voice always sounds about ten times better in the shower than out of it, because, according to Julia, the enclosed space of the shower creates sort of an echo thing that auto-tunes your voice and stuff. I am so disappointed. There I was, thinking I was a natural singer.

Dang. Poor neighbours.

La la la,

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august 9

feeling: very much awake

Still August 9th, yes, dammit. However, it is eleven at night, now. I actually slept eight hours more. That's a big feat considering I woke up rather later than usual (10am.) and went to sleep at 9 last night.

I'm all rested now...and can't sleep anymore. So what do I do? I write in here. Although my hand's tired so just a quick update to tell you that I just took out my dress for tomorrow, and my shoes and earrings and everything to have it ready - and it's honestly beyond gorgeous.

It looks even better on the mannequin in my room than it did at the store. And you know where it looks even lovelier? On me.

Can't wait to wear it! All right...well...I'm off to...eat...maybe. Or go read a magazine or something. Or flip through old photoshoots, I like doing that, it's relaxing and raises my self-esteem because I don't know how photographers do it, but I always look a hundred times more gorgeous in the shoots than in real life, and that's saying something considering I'm one of the most beautiful girls out there without makeup or pretty dresses. (Not that I'm ever not wearing a pretty dress but...you get the point.)

Very content and not tired whatsoever,

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feeling: ---

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september 14

feeling: hopeful

I didn't lose this. I swear I didn't lose it.

I...misplaced it, okay? Emmeline Vance never loses stuff, much less her personal diary. Nope, not at all. I knew it was there all along, right there between my History of Magic textbook and that photograph album that I keep in the bottom of my trunk. Of course I did.

Besides, I didn't feel like writing in this thing at all. Okay, fine, I lost it, I found it, and I've been missing it and I have so much stuff to tell and

I feel like I should catch up, shouldn't I? Alright, so it's been two weeks exactly since I arrived at Hogwarts this year, academically I'm doing excellent, as usual, even though fifth year is so much harder than fourth! Lav warned me about it but of course, I told her I could handle it, and I can. I'm doing incredible. Except for Potions. Oh, fine, if I can't tell my diary, who can I tell? I'm not doing so well in Potions. Slughorn gave me a P the other day and my world fell apart. It was just one ingredient that I messed up and the whole potion was totally wrong, apparently. I hate him. What's the Slug Club supposed to be for if he gives me P's!? I kind of broke down on Aidan in the library; he was sweet.

Um...okay so J and Kieran broke up. It was pretty horrible... not exactly, he wasn't mean to her or anything, but I'm currently pissed at him and ignoring him, as any best friend should do. What else, TJ's dating Maylene freaking Bell! Can you believe him? I hate that girl...she's so...urgh, I don't know exactly what, but she hates me so I have to hate her. Nobody with any sense hates me. And he's dating her! TJ! Idiot. Well, they won't last long, I'm sure. He'll get bored of her. I'm positive. He has to. Right? Damn her to hell.

Anyway, so I had a thing with Cameron Troy in the first weeks of school. I just broke it off, actually. Something didn't seem right? I don't know, I decided we were better off as friends, he agreed, and we parted ways. He's still super fun, though, and cute. Really cute. But he's fifteen, and I've got my sights set on an older man at the moment.

Theodore Tanner Tonks. Isn't it cute how his name is all 'T's'? I find it adorable. And he's awesome, really. He's so studious and, wait for it...HE'S HEAD BOY. Yes. HEAD BOY. I may be about to become the HEAD BOY's girlfriend. If things go my way. Can you believe it? HEAD BOY! Ah! (: So, how we even came across each other, you ask. Well, it's funny but I have Amycus Carrow to thank for it. See, the other day I was walking down the hallway when suddenly I freeze on the spot and fall over - I broke my spine - and then I'm blindfolded with a spell and I hear Amycus Carrow's voice talking and saying he's going to hurt me and obviously I'm scared out of my mind, and then out of nowhere there comes my knight in shining armour - Ted - and defends me.

It got pretty weird after that. I could only hear grunts and stuff and then I hear Rita's voice! Yes, Rita Skeeter. Who broke up with Ted over the summer, by the way, and then somebody's pulling me up and the blindfold's off, and my back hurts really, really badly, and Ted half-carries me, and Amycus was really hurt, and then Rita looked pissed for some reason, even though this had nothing to do with her, and she goes up and kisses Amycus. We left after that. Ted took me to the Hospital Wing and made sure I was alright, and we've been seeing each other lately. I'm super happy. So there might be something coming from that, hopefully.

I love Ted!

And yeah, that's pretty much it. I'm actually finishing up an owl to Lav - we've been catching up recently - I love the girl, she's awesome. Oh and by the way, I haven't spoken to Chace at all lately. He's just been kind of missing in action? I haven't heard from him at all; I guess we're just growing apart. It's sad; I love Chace. But, that means Bingblott's out of my life as well. Which is definitely a plus.

Toodles,

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september 17

feeling: ecstatic

TED ASKED ME OUT LAST NIGHT!

Isn't he cute? Don't you love him? I definitely love him. He's adorable! And he's so smart, and seriously? Teddy-bear is just a big 'AW'.

Eep! Omigosh, this is so amazing. And he's Head Boy! And maybe I don't really know that much about him, haha, but hey, that's the whole point, right? I mean, you have to start off somewhere.

I'M GOING TO GO TELL J.

Brb, freaking out,

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