This is for Real (Indigo)

[Indigo Grace]

"I can't." She looked at him oddly, like she wasn't sure what he had expected. Indigo had this firm rule against that sort of thing, and she didn't let anything cross it. She didn't want people to get to know her, she liked that sort of security that came from the unknown. The less they knew, the better, because that way they would have no ammo when they decided to eventually go against her and turn petty. It didn't matter who it was or if she believed they would never do that, it was just a rule she had made. Somehow it didn't seem very fair to do that to your own boyfriend, but when did fair have something to do with anything? Indi didn't know fair as anything more than a childish fairytale. "I don't know what to think of myself, honesty. I'm sorry Regulus, but I can't, not really." What would she say? Talk about how dreadfully boring her life was, how all she wanted to do was get away from that house and do something, how she was nothing like she behaved, or how she was some kind of freak? That she could see the future at moments?

Yes, that would do it. Yes Regulus, I'm a nutball, but you still like me right? God that wouldn't do, not at all. She didn't tell anyone that, not anyone. Indi knew the only real way a relationship could expand was if you shared things about yourself you didn't with anyone else, but she still didn't feel like going there. Because something inside her still didn't want to have a real relationship, because she was still comfortable with short and flaky ones. "I don't think so, why would I say that?" She grinned. "What's mine is mine" She added selfishly teasing. She was kidding, but she knew he'd see that. You mean about blood purity? Of course, she should have specified, but that's exactly what she meant, among other things of that nature. Indi wished he didn't live in that awful house, just like she wished she didn't live in her's.

"Hmmm." Indigo twisted her lips and she tried to take it all in, that's what she thought he would say. Why was everyone around her telling her this was the case? Maybe it was, after all, the truth. But then why was she constantly thinking it was so wrong? Most Gryffindors didn't feel that way, as well as the other houses excluding slytherin. If Indi wasn't around slytherins and her family so much of the time, she'd have a much easier time opposing it all. Now it was confusing her even more, and she hated being confused. "Don't you find that wrong?" She eyed him, gauging his reaction. Regulus said it so matter-of-factly, he made it hard to see how horrific it was. Ugh, Blacks and their mind poisioning.

[brett]

I said from the start that you could take it or leave it

I can't The words cut like daggers and Regulus had to look away to hide the pain in his face. He had tried to brace himself and in fact, almost...expected that response, but somehow it still hurt. And Regulus wanted to be angry and he wanted to yell at Indi about how there was no way they could have a relationship if she didn't let him in, but he didn't. His thoughts stopped him. How many times had he let his girlfriend, or anybody else for that matter anywhere near him. How much was he hiding from, even Indi? How could he be mad at her for doing exactly what he was doing himself? Still regulus feared what might come out of his mouth so he stayed quiet.

"I don't know what to think of myself, honesty. I'm sorry Regulus, but I can't, not really." Regulus took in the words. Did she know how much this was hurting? Could she? Had he even let her in to know that much about him. "It's fine," he managed keeping most of the pain out of his voice. "No big deal," he added more convincingly, smiling as he looked at Indi. He loved her. Whether she would let him in or not she still gave him butterflies from just standing near him. And learning about each other, it would come or it wouldn't. Everyone had there secrets right?

"What's mine is mine" Regulus smiled back at Indi, there was the girl he loved. And even though she only joking and he knew that. The words seemed to carry more meaning. What's hers was hers, her thoughts, her feelings, perhaps even her love were all hers, and she wasn't sharing. But it was just in good fun joking around so Regulus pushed aside deeper meaning and kept right on smiling thinking of nothing but how much he adored his girlfriends smile.

Regulus shrugged his pureblood screaming in outrage, though he stayed calm on the surface. He was surprised to hear Indi, who was pureblood herself, question her superiority, but she was important to him so he held his tongue. "What d'you mean?" Regulus asked slightly confused. Reg's morals had been warped by his upbringing right and wrong had been altered and now Indi's question was looking to undo those alterations. Reg still struggled to understand, how could it be wrong to act superior if you were in fact superior?

[Indigo Grace]

She could read his expressions and regretted that she had to say what she said, but she did. She had to let him know what her boundaries and guidelines were. Indigo had swift order about her life, nothing could fit or sneak out of place without her permission, and that included rules. Besides, she didn't know that much about him either, if you thought about it. Everyone knew his family, she had discovered he wasn't horrible like people thought, but beyond that the personal info was rare. She couldn't imagine that he didn't have his own secrets he wanted to keep in the closet, amost everyone did. In this way, she had always assumed the term 'everyone wins' worked well.

He looked a little it angry at first, which wasn't shocking, she had expected as much. Apparently whatever he wanted to say he had held back, though she wished her wouldn't. She studied his face for any chance of retaliation. Hm. He should say what he thought, people always told her what they thought of her, and she was used to it, it didn't hurt. It's fine, no big deal. Indi raised her dark eyebrows and she moved her hands away to fold them across her chest. "Obviously not." It wasn't fine. "Maybe I should explain it to you better." She shook her head as if she were fighting with herself. How could she explain it better? That was what it was, though he didn't know why.

What d'you mean? Oh god, she shouldn't have brought it up. It was like opening a can of worms, and now she couldn't just brush it off. How to tell him that....well what? That he was totally wrong? Oh yes, that would go over well. "I just mean...." She sighed, thinking that keeping to her own buisness would be good advice for herself. "What makes purebloods better than others? They can't duel any better, they don't know any more spells than anyone else, they look the same has halfbloods and muggles.....there's no way to identify them differently except for their lieage." Indi took him by the shoulders, trying to figure out how to make her point. "Look. Look at me now. Can you tell just by staring at me, whether I grew up as a pureblood witch or a muggle? I bet you can't. I certainly wouldn't be able to."

[brett]

I prefer that you keep it, and don't let go

"You already did, what's yours is yours," Regulus smiled. He was actually cooling down from the initial hurt and anger. He was an emotional passionate person, so he tended to overreact. That's exactly what he was doing now. He and Indi had been dating for what? Really only a day officially. They'd only started talking a few weeks ago. Regulus was just overwhelmed by his feelings which he could really only identify as love, though he was afraid to use the word around Indi. The point was, love or not they hadn't been together very long and trust was something that developed over time. And he was certain that with time would come all the personal information.

"I'm not mad, I mean...well I was a little upset, but I'm fine now. We've only been dating since last night. We've only really talked on one occasion before that, it was unrealistic for me to expect you to develop enough trust over that short of a time frame....Especially since I have some secrets I'm keen to let you in on just yet either," he smiled. How would she ever take the news that he was going to be a career death eater? Or could she change that? "But as time goes by we can learn more. I may not know much about you, but I know that I'm happier then I'm used to feeling when I'm around you, and for now, that's enough," Brett smiled. Hopefully it would be enough. Please, let that be enough.

What made purebloods better? It was just that they had pure blood. And how could she say they were the same as muggles? Regulus himself could see the issue with halfbloods and mudbloods because they were like she said, at least equal in power, but muggles? Muggles didn't know magic, muggles drove wizards out of their society, because they knew they were inferior and they didn't like having a constant reminder. They were afraid wizards would use their powers against them, but maybe if they had just accepted them they would need to. But now, they should be afraid because their time for dominance was coming to an end.

As Indi grabbed him bye the shoulders forced him to look at her, which really she could have just asked, but Reg was glad for the forcible nature because it made him really look at her. His bright green eyes scanned over her soft complexion the shape of her nose and cheek bones, the curve of her lips. Then he locked onto her brown eyes and all negative feelings left him as he stared into he amazing chocolate brown eyes. She was making sense, and his childhood teachings were scrambling for a response, but he couldn't speak, lost in her eyes. And then a question, would he still love her if she was a muggle? Would she still have given him these feelings? This happiness caused by her mere presence?

He dropped his eyes to the ground unable to meet Indi's gaze. A response began to form in his brain making it's way to his lips. "I didn't make up the system Indi, it's just the way it is...being a wizard makes you better than a muggle so it then makes sense that the more wizarding blood you have the better you are...It's the same with money. Is there a physical difference between a poor person and a rich person, no, but which would you rather be? And which one has more power?" Yes sixteen years of learning wasn't about fail him now. Orion Black had made sure his son learned well they ways of the world. Money and blood equal power. And lucky little Regulus got to be born with both.

[Indigo Grace]

ooc: nice post

It was usually this way, she had a hard time making people understand it wasn't just them, she was that way with everybody. And it wasn't them, it was her. It sounded like the generic break-up line that guys used but they didn't really mean 'It's not you, it's me.' However Indi was serious about her lack of trust, it really wasn't them. Her little faith in others was due from people from a long time ago, that made her think it was useless to trust. It was hard to turn back on that theory now, no matter how warped some thought it was. It was better not to trust, better not to get close, better just to leave it alone. The less emotion you felt for another, the better. The only person you would ever need is yourself, right? It just made it easier that way.

"Alright. Because you know, I wasn't trying to start something, I simply find it better this way. On the trust issue, I guess we'll just have to wait and see." Wait and see was a lot kinder than I wouldn't count on it. It was true after all, that they hadn't personally known the other for that long. They'd known the others' name and that was it, until up to a couple weeks ago. He had secrets did he. Not so shocking, knowing him, Slytherins, and the Blacks. They were all just full of secrets, secrets that Indigo sometimes had a hard time not being a busy-body about. She liked to know things, but didn't like to give them in return. "That's certainly fair enough. Right now, we should be satisfied with knowing we're happier around each other. Trust me, it's a lot better than my usual cranky self." Miss Rain Cloud really.

Indigo reached up and fingered the short strands of his hair, she really loved his dark-colored hair that was as smooth as silk. She supposed she was definitely making him think about a lot with those questions, especially the out-of-the-blue abruptiveness of it. It was usually something you could just come out and state your opinion, but it looked like Regulus was having a hard time with it. Easy for Indi to see why, it must be incredibly hard to think up things to support that ridiculous belief. Her father did rather well, but that's because he always had time to think about his response. She knew not to just spring things on him. She wondered how hard it would be for him to push pass the brainwashing attempts of his childhood; Indigo found it hard, all the time, and she hadn't always been raised like that.

She watched as his eyes dropped, for some reason now unable to look at her. Which one would you rather be? Um, erm. She shifted uncomfortably, that last statment making her squirm for an answer. Indi lived poor, Indi knew poor. It wasn't a beautiful thing to sleep on the floor of a moving vehicle, going from one place to the next. A soft, featherdown pillow and warm blankets was much more inviting. But....despite the fact that their 'family', the others in that little gypsy group, were dirt poor, they were actually..happy. The laughed, they danced, they told jokes. Sure they were a little weird, but they were satisfied and got to be who they were. Her own life now was much different. You had to be careful what you said, people were often bitter and snobby, you had to be proper and boring. That wasn't happy.

"Some system" She muttered, before looking away from him and staring out past the schoolyard, at the trees that lined the forbidden forest. She stared long and hard at it, finding it all very odd. "The rich have a considerable amount of power. You ask which I would rather be, and I could tell you from experiencing both. I'd pick poor and happy in a heartbeat. Power, I always thought it meant something to me." She shrugged, still looking in the other direction. "I thought it meant a lot to have it. But it really means nothing. I don't want it, I don't want to be rich. It....makes me miserable. Being poor is uncomfortable and sad. I wish to be something in the middle. The only thing I want is really to be normal."

[brett]

OOC: thanks, nice response ;D

Don't let it go, don't let go

Regulus nodded. It would be the best idea to wait and see. Maybe they could both overcome their ridiculous fears and finally decide to trust someone...just maybe. Until then they would have to settle for light hearted conversation and laughing at stupid jokes. Regulus wanted to say that would always be enough for him. Just being happy being around Indi, but eventually they would need to trust each other...or they would need to part ways. Regulus knew which he would choose, but could Indi say the same. "I have a hard time picturing you as cranky," Regulus smiled his face hiding the deeper thought that lay beneath the surface of his pale skin, and pure blood.

Why wasn't it enough that they made each other happy? How could he constantly save Indi from all these awful traits she claimed to have and still not had her trust? How could he not give her his? He wanted to, he really did, but he couldn't. She would hate him if she knew the truth and until he was convinced of otherwise his lips were to remained sealed. But she was hiding something to...no she wasn't something she was hiding everything. Maybe that was the key to solving her mystery. Unravel the truth a little at a time, take pieces and put them together to complete the puzzle.

"Some system" Regulus shrugged making sure Indi had turned away from him before allowing the smallest of smiles to hint at his lips. Orion Black had indeed taught his youngest son well. And for a moment Regulus was foolish enough to think he had won, when Indi spoke again. Regulus studied Indi's face as she spoke, so she had lived poor for some time. Already he was learning things, but he quickly stored the piece of his greatest puzzle before focusing again on her words.

"You say you'd choose poor and happy, then you say being poor is sad...which is it?" Regulus asked not angry at all, but confused perhaps even curious. "I've never been poor," he began to explain just so Indi wouldn't misinterpret his first question as a mockery of her. "I'm sure you're shocked," he added smiling as he shook his head a little at his stupidity. "What I'm saying is, I think anyone with any sort of sense would choose happiness over money...but were you miserable because you now had money? Or were you miserable because your father tried to use his money to buy your happiness...?" Regulus asked still studying Indi's beautiful face. Maybe Indi was happier when she was poor because her mother gave her love and her father gave her items.

For Regulus he enjoyed being rich, because the way he was raised material objects equaled love. If he did something his parents liked, they gave him a gift. Regulus had become accustom to the fact that his parents were incapable of love, and he had accepted that all the material things were what they thought love meant. That was why he always got more than Sirius, because they loved him more. At least that was what Regulus had convinced himself, because he knew the alternative was that he was nothing more than a dog in his parents eyes. He was rewarded with a treat for following orders and got hit on the nose with a newspaper when he was bad...maybe that was why Sirius' animagus form was a dog.

[Indigo Grace]

Conversation was so much better when they were laughing about something and keeping it easy. It wasn't awkward for one, and for two, you weren't constantly thinking about the next thing you should say. Of course it was more in depth this way, and it was how normal people got to know one another. They learned the others' thoughts and opinions on things. Generally, this is something that happened soon after they met, not weeks later. Maybe that's what made the whole thing seem so uncomfortable. Indi even made things up to avoid something she didn't want to talk about, but she had started this one. Now knowing what she knew, she half wished she didn't. She couldn't pretend she had no idea what his thoughts were on the matter when Gryffindors tried to corner her in with that whole, 'omg you're dating a Slytherin' sort of thing.

"Just wait" Indigo said seriously, a little blandly. He had nothing to fear though oh no, it was the girls who she'd attack. The quiet ones that were getting on her nerve, or the loud mouths who had to talk about anything and everything. It wasn't as plausable that she would get aggitated around Regulus, she hadn't thus far. In fact, he seemed to calm her down, especially when she was thinking very catty things. Which is it? Uh...well, he just didn't quite get it. "I think poor is a sad situation, not that it's a sad life. Many a poor people can be happy. In fact, sometimes they're a little Too happy." She had a fine line on that overly joyful aspect in people. "But living poor is hard Regulus....you're always worried about now, and what you're going to do tomorrow. When you have money, you don't have to worry about those things. On the other hand, people who have nothing are usually the most happy. Because, they live life to it's fullest, and they don't pretend to be someone they aren't."

Indigo folded her arms and stared at him pointedly. "The last thing that man cares about is my happiness." She gloomed, trying to make that point loud and clear. "He only took me in because he finds it some sort of obligation. Anyways, my home life isn't the point...Money manipulates people. It can take a perfectly good person and distort their line of vision." She waved her own family situation away, finding it inconsequencial to their current subject. Everything about her, her stance, her gaze, her voice, had drastically become more rigid and on the defense in the last few minutes. Noticing this, she sat down on the nearest bench and unfolded her arms. "Never mind.....let's talk about something else." This conversation hadn't eased her thoughts one bit.

[brett]

I had some nightmares, clawing at my skin and bones

Why? Why out of all the conversation topics had Indi tried to attack the corner stone of his beliefs? Why had he been avoiding it? They weren't talking about money, well they were, but that was because Regulus had liked the question of blood to money. He had changed the topic to something he could argue. The truth was no one ever offered much explanation as to why purebloods were so much better than other wizards. He was taught he was Black and that he was wizard royalty and he took it as truth, what child wouldn't want to believe he was a prince? How many children fantasized about such things and here Regulus was with his parents telling him he truly was.

Because, they live life to it's fullest, and they don't pretend to be someone they aren't.
Regulus wanted to make her stop somehow. He wanted to take her questions back to Orion Black and have him tell his son what to say how to respond. But he already had. If anybody ever got to saying something you didn't like and you had no argument to make then it was time to call in personal attacks, to demoralize the opponent into recanting their statement, and with anyone, but Indigo that is precisely what Reg would have done, but instead he scrapped around his teachings for a solid argument sure there must be something worth using.

"You make it sound like being poor is a good thing," He said confused and slightly frustrated. "Indi the poor want to be rich. They envy the rich," he objected. "The question isn't about who's happy and who's not, who you want to be like. No little child dreams of being poor one day, they dream of being rich, of escaping their lives of poverty and becoming wealthy and that is why the rich are seen as superior...happiness has nothing to do with it," Regulus explained calmer now as he confidently backed his argument. People valued objects, not happiness and until that changed the rich would always be seen as a superior class.

It can take a perfectly good person and distort their line of vision.
Regulus had to object to this as well of course. "Or maybe money just reveals who a person really is. You reject the idea of wealth because you think it corrupts people and your right. But the fact is Indi, being a 'good person' is against human nature. Money reveals that nature because you don't have to rely on others, you can rely on yourself and your money...People are evil by nature and it's only under circumstance, like being born without money, that they become 'good.'" Regulus finished again satisfied with his logic. Twisting words and playing with peoples minds seemed to be the specialty of the Serpentine Prince. That was the way he was raised his father had passed along his silver forked tongue to his son, the 'good' one. Funny how the words good and bad were subjective.

let's talk about something else.
The snake inside Regulus smirked with victory, but the love struck boy had taken control of the 6th years features so the inner celebration went unnoticed. What was reflected in Reg's pale face was the realization that he may be pushing away the only person who could save him from a dark fate. He nodded at the suggestion looking for the right words of apology. "That's a good idea. I didn't mean to sorta go off like that, those are my father's words not mine," he said innocently attempting to shuck the blame. Of course in this case it was true, but that had been another one of his father's teachings, if you looked hard enough nothing was ever really your fault.

[Indigo Grace]

Surely Regulus felt like he was somehow being attacked. And, I guess, in a way he was. Indi didn't want him to believe those things, because they were awful and untrue. To rid someone of such folly ideas however, was much, much easier said then done. She had set her mind to it one day, that she wasn't going to believe the things her father and others told her. It was up to her decide which was right and which wasn't. She'd decided this on the brink of confusion, when she hadn't known what else to believe. It still messed her up sometimes, when one person was telling her one thing, and another was telling her something totally different.

"Gee Regulus, I had absolutely no idea what poor people think. Thanks for clearing that up for me" She stated too sarcastically, wishing she hadn't said it but it was too late. It came out of her mouth before she realized it, so Indigo brushed it off as if it were a trivial comment and moved on, averting her eyes because of her mistake for a moment. Indi generally kept herself calm and collected, she almost never said something she didn't want to be said. She brushed out the wrinkles in her clothes, even though she was sure they're weren't any, and continued.

Happiness has nothing to do with it. Indigo blinked and looked at him, nearly aghast. "Regulus." She shook her head, what went on in that house of his? "That's horrible." She said, discusted that they had taught their children that. All these pureblooded families drove her nuts. "I mean, you're not horrible, but that is." Indigo stared up at him from the bench she had sat down on. "They really teach you stuff like that? All my life, that's the only thing I've really wanted, just to be happy. I can't start believing that it doesn't even matter now. I have to believe it counts for something, that money isn't everything." In the end, all money was, was a peice of metal..right?


People are evil by nature. Indigo winced and stared at the ground, running her hands over her face. "Please stop." She didn't want to hear it anymore, any of it. Opening that can of worms was probably the worst thing she could have done. What she had seen, what hadn't happened yet, was now very likely in her mind, and it was literally making her sick. Evil. What makes a person truely evil? And by his theory, what makes them no longer evil? She wouldn't believe that her mother was evil, no matter what they said, and she wouldn't believe that she'd become that. At least not today. Other days, she believed that very much. Often she felt like the world was a cage and it was useless to try anymore, a rather negative attitude.

She sat like that for a few moments, with her hands over her face as if to drown the sound out. Moving, she put one hand underneath her chin to support it, and let the other fall to her side. Indigo looked up at Regulus and shook her head one more time. "I certainly know how to kill a conversation." Indi patted the spot next to her. "Sit down with me."

[brett]

I nearly did explode

"Anytime," Regulus smirked returning his girlfriends sarcasm.. Even in the midst of an argument Regulus still loved Indi's sarcasm. It was still about his favorite part about her. But it was hard to pick just one quality out of all the amazing ones Indi possessed both physically and mentally.

"Indi I'm not saying happiness isn't important. Of course it is. Just not when it come to social standing. Happiness is a completely separate entity from wealth and yet through time we have begun to associate the two," He explained almost as if he were presenting some sort of persuasive speech. Of course that was what it was wasn't it? The words he was taught to say. "You're lucky because you've lived both rich and poor. You've know money in no way equals happiness. But you cannot honestly tell me that while you were living poor, that you didn't once think that your life would be better if you had more money," Regulus paused waiting for the response he wouldn't even need to hear. He knew it was true, and he was really just allowing time for it to sink in, because Indi would see it was true and that everything else he had said was true as well and the problem would be solved.

"Please stop."
Regulus's heart did just that, stopped beating for a moment and jumped up into his throat making speech literally impossible. This is it, he thought. We haven't even dated 24 four hours and she's dumping me. But he swallowed hard, dropping his heart back into it's rightful place as it resumed it's normal rhythm. Still he feared the next words from Indi's mouth feared opening his in case he would hurt her more with his words. But inside that snake was still grinning laughing at the way Indi had cried for him to stop, because she knew what he said was true and was in denial as were so many others, but they would all come around in time.

A relieved smile washed over Reg's pale features as Indi offered him a spot beside her. He laughed lightly at her comment as he took a seat beside her. This was where he belonged not bickering over silly things. "I-I didn't mean to upset you Indi, I just...well were moving past it, but please forgive me," he pleaded innocently looking into her eyes. Hopefully only the part of him that wanted to be forgiven was reflected in the emerald green eyes of the the young Slytherin. He promised Indi he would never lie to her and he wasn't now. At least not really. He believed the words he spoke. He never wanted to upset Indi, and only wanted to be with her and be happy, because even when they were arguing he was happier than he was without her. But the thing was he still did believe in the words he spoke.

[Indigo Grace]

Of course she had thought about money when she had nothing else. But the thing is, it didn't control her life like it seemed to now that she had it. Correction, now that she was living in a house full of people who had it. Her mother and the gypsies, as odd as everything including her life may seem, taught her how to enjoy the lifestyle. She'd stay up late at night, way past the bedtime she assumed of most kids her age, and just danced, spinning around in her circles with her mother. Indi got to see and experience so many new places, and there was never a dull moment. Still, Indi was blocked from her real magic, and all she got to do with voodoo magic, or use magic for show. Her mother hated the world of witches and wizards alike, especially the rich. She had to agree with her about most of the purebloods, but Indigo liked the magic world, and was rather resentful that she had been held away from it for so long.

"Of course I did. I figured it would get rid of all the problems I faced. But in return, all it really does is rid you of the old and gives new problems to deal with. It's more like an exchange, rather than an upgrade." That was the best way for her to put it, without shouting out that she was right and he was wrong, plain and simple. It was sooo hard for her not to just do exactly yet, Indigo was stubborn. She held back because she didn't want to make things worse and fight with him, of all people. Why couldn't she just have a moment of piece? Why did she insist on fighting with everyone? She felt so childish, and yet usually, she couldn't stop.

He got so innocent when he was worried, all the 'black' washed out of his features when Regulus was being sincere. She liked this look much better then the one that was on his face before. It was some kind of expression that seemed to desire power, she hated that look. Indi didn't apologise back, for fear she'd just say something that would start it up again. And besides, she knew she was right, and she knew he didn't belive anythind different from when they started their little petty argument. "I know. I hate that I always start these childish fights, and then worst of all, I have to have the last word. It was a bad idea for me to bring it up is all." She moved her arms to wrap them around his middle, and leaned her head against his chest. "So let's not think about this anymore, at least for now. It's worrying me."

[brett]

You smote the demons, gave me back my feelings

Let it go, Regulus mentally ordered himself. The resilient snake that had been slithering around his brain hissed angrily in protest, but having the last word wasn't necessary. Indigo proved his point. She probably hadn't realized it, but she had. Regulus would allowed her to believe she had won because he cared about her and he could already tell she wouldn't be satisfied unless she had the last word...he loved that. The fact was though, she said herself when she was poor she thought money would solve her problems, and that was what gave the rich power.

Of course she had gone on to add that money brings problems of it's own, but he'd like to see her convince a man living on the street that having money was a miserable life. Regulus knew the 'problems' with having money, he'd grown up wealthy and he'd always held firm to the belief that his life was better because he had that sort of wealth. Indi's words made him wonder if that was true. Then again living poor with his parents would probably only make things worse. Money may change people, but somehow he doubted poverty even poverty would make his parents capable of truly loving him, when they didn't even love each other.

Regulus hugged Indi back as she wrapped her arms around him. He placed a soft kiss on her head and ran a hand through her soft brown hair. "I don't want you worrying," Regulus said softly. Worrying would cause doubt and doubt may make his fear come true. He hated to think that his words, his greatest weapon had been turned on the only girl he'd ever truly felt close too. Money had never made Regulus happy, it allowed him to believe that he was, but the excitement of a new present was nothing like true happiness, the kind he felt when he was around Indi.

Reg searched his mind for a new topic, but he kept wanting to say more about money about how it meant nothing about how Indi was the only thing important to him, but the words got caught in his throat and he realized he would have to swallow them and let something else come out. "Indigo...Do you believe in love?" was the something else that came out. Regulus had been longing to tell Indi he loved her, but he wasn't quite sure he knew what love was. He had labeled the new emotion Indi had aroused as love, but that was for lack of a better term. Regulus had certainly not been taught about love by his parents, he had never seen two people and thought they must be in love...actually he wasn't sure he would have recognized it if he had.

[Indigo Grace]

She had hoped that she would at least be able to sway his opinion, make it a tad bit less stable. It hadn't seemed to her like she had made any difference at all, which got her thinking about that note she'd passed with Ludo. Among a million other people who were telling her to be careful and what not. Oh please, she was Indigo. She could take care of herself, at least she assumed she could. If he had been anyone else, Indi would have already slapped him and told him to get some sense. But Reg wasn't, and it wouldn't feel exactly right to slap him. Huh. Besides, no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't change a person. She'd tried over and over again, it didn't work. Indi liked almost everything about Regulus, except for that. Up until this point, she'd believed that it was just his family's thoughts speaking for him on that account, but now she wasn't so sure.

I don't want you worrying. There was nothing that would stop her from worrying. She was always worrying, fretting about something. It was just she usually didn't voice this fact. She was very calm in situations on the outside, even though she was truely an overly-dramatic person. Indigo tended to take the littlest thing and make it the biggest deal on earth, and it would be almost believeable too. "Isn't worrying what every girl does?" Indi peered up at him and rolled her eyes playfully, not wanting to be the typical girl. Indigo, do you believe in love? She froze in her movement, her fingers stopped in their pattern of tracing circles on his back.

She wasn't ready for that question. Did she belive in love. She never had before, it was a perfect motto for her, because it kept things so simple. Love never seemed to touch her life, so she figured it wasn't real, because why would everyone else be able to have what she didn't? This year everything was hitting her differently, including love. Indigo didn't know what to make of it, she didn't want to think that it actually was real. Love was complicated. She felt like she deserved more than it. Her other relationships focused so much on the physical, to keep away from the emotional as much as possible. "Maybe...I don't know." Was this love? She thought it was yesterday, but she was really such a childish schoolgirl yesterday, maybe she'd just taken her daydreaming too far.

[brett]

Now I am good to go

"Since when did you start doing what every girl does?" Regulus smirked. Indi was nothing like other girls and at the same time she was exactly like them. It was a complete contradiction, but it seemed kinda fitting, at least in Reg's eyes. Of course he couldn't fault Indi for worrying, it was more of what she had been worried about that bothered him. He had caused her to worry through his words, but he was right wasn't he? He had made his point, but if making a point cost him Indigo he would gladly give it up. It wasn't that easy though, nothing ever was.

Regulus felt Indigo's hand stop moving as his question hit her and he wished he could take it back. Why had he even asked? Did he really even want an answer. He had just been thinking it and then the words had passed through his lips. Really Reg was just looking for an answer, did love exist or was it just a word used by people who had no idea what it even meant a false concept, a social construct completely invented for movie screens to fill people with false hope of someday feeling an emotion that wasn't even real.

Regulus gave a small smile at Indi's response part of it was sheer relief that she hadn't said know and part was in the fact that she seemed just as confused about the idea as he was. "I'm not really sure myself," Reg admitted looking to comfort Indigo let her know that her answer hadn't been wrong and that she wasn't alone in her opinion. "I've always kinda hoped it does exist though...especially recently," he added hinting at the words he knew he couldn't say. The idea of love was just so appealing. One emotion that could conquer all others, and warm even the blackest of hearts.

[Indigo Grace]

"I don't know. But if I ever do, stop me." She was good and pretending she didn't want to be like everyone else, when it was a fact that she did. Indigo always manages to find herself in the spotlight, and it's always by accident. She'd like almost nothing better than to be considered one of the normal people and be like everybody else. She knew that without vigerous training, this would simply never be. One, her background was entirely different from theirs. And 2, her unusual obsession for nature wasn't bound to be the new trend any time soon. "Yet, it can be ok..with some things. Like flirting with the Slytherin prince" She used quotation marks with her little fingers, running her index fingers down from his forehead to the tip of his jaw, giving him a kiss.

Indi knew full well how many girls paid attention to him, but that was just too bad. He was her's. She gave a dramatic sigh and smiled. "Thank merlin, because I get that question asked far too many times, and they always seem so sure about it." It constantly left the girl in an awkward situation, especially when they picked the exact moment when she was about to break up with them. Of course at that time, she had always been so sure that it wasn't real, now she wasn't. It took a lot to waver her feelings about something, but she was unsure once again. Love, was it or wasn't it? There's a question. It was the hardest question for her to answer, when it was meant to be so simple.

I've always kinda hoped it does exist though...especially recently. Indi bit her lip and stared into his eyes, not looking away this time. "I've never hoped for it, I've always been the bitter pessimist on the subject of love. But now..so do I." She felt like she'd just given him a handful of her trust, for telling Regulus something true and secret. She didn't want just anyone knowing that Indigo liked him that much, it could be used as a weapon against her. "I've always just figured love was a prettier version of lust. That's why my relationships have almost all been that way, simply physical, nothing really....meaningful. But I tried something different with you, you have no idea how hard it is for me to contain myself" She winked.