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[olivia]

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[olivia]

^content

Bahh I'm back in London and I have nothing to dooo. Pierre is off doing God knows what to do with photography stuff that is just way over my head, Danielle is still in France with her mother, who's still freaking out about Emery eloping with Jackie [YAY JACKERYY =D] and leaving without a word. Idiotttt, who does that? Emery Olivier, apparently. Then again, you know, for a ravenclaw, Emery always WAS pretty slow. I just hope he's taking care of Jackie. If he's not, I'll have some french butt-kicking to do! Seriously. I wonder if he's going to let Jackie come back for her final year. I hope so, I miss her already! I haven't seen her alll summerrrrr and I miss herrrr. I miss everyone, really. Alice and Sirius and Jake - who's not my boyfriend anymore, by the by, and no I don't want to talk about it BUT IT PROBABLY HAS TO DO WITH YOU-KNOW-WHO, AND I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT THE ONE WITH THE EVIL MINIONS - and Pierre and Marlene and Lily and James and - OH! OHHH! Speaking of James - and Lily - their wedding is tomorrow! YAY I love weddings! But then again, who doesn't love weddings? Okay, well, I suppose SOME people wouldn't love weddings. Like women who never got married are probably all bitter and stuff, but it's kind-of sad if they're upset and bitter during someone's special day! Anyway, as I am only seventeen years old, IIII am not looking to be married any time soon haha sooo I can enjoy it! Dur! I'm sure it's going to be beautiful, and Lily's going to be beautiful. I wish I could've come soon enough to be the bride's maid buut alas, I literally JUST got back from France. And I'm a tad jetlagged, too. For whatever reason, I used muggle means. Oh wait, I remember now - I can't apparate. Dangnabit. Oh well, maybe next year I'll master it. Although, hah, doubtfulllll. I'll probably never be good at it and I'll always have to take muggle transportation or the icky, icky knight bus that makes me want to throw up every time I ride it. Blahhh.

Anyway. It's like, really, really late, but I can't sleep [jet lag sucks I tell you]. Lila and Aunti Lena and Grandmama and Alex are all sleeping. And I'm just sitting here in my bedroom with my wand light (I love being able to use magic outside of school, it's so bloody brilliant!) and...writing in my diary. How lame of me. Oh well. Ooooh I never got to gush about my experiences in France! Danielle took me EVERYwhere. I saw the Eiffel Tower - SO TALL!!! And the view from up there is MAGNIFICENT. Danielle was clinging to my arm the whole time, she hates heights hahaha. It was hilarious, haha. And we went to these fancy museums which have fancy names that I can't for the life of me PRONOUNCE let alone SPELL so I'm not going to even try. But the stuff in there was soooo pretty. And FRANCE is pretty. Although, you know, some of the people are just plain rude. I tried to ask someone directions once because I was alone and they kept staring at me like I'd come from another planet or something just 'cause I was speaking English! And only responded when I spoke in broken French (which I got from the handy pocket English-to-French dictionary I had in my bag). And even then they spoke as if there was something smelly under their nose! AS IF I WAS THE SMELLY THING UNDER THEIR NOSES! And I'm pretty sure I was not smelly because I had showered that day and even used perfume so...HMPF, I was so NOT stinky. They're the stinky ones >< Except not really, they actually smell pretty good. And they look good too! I don't think I have seen ONE ugly french person. Even the poor look nice!! And the boys...ooh la la - muaha, 'tis phrase I picked up! Basically the only French I remember besides "Bonjoor", "Merci" and "Voolez-voo coocheh avec moi?" - which I learned means "Would you like to sleep with me?". Dani informed me of this when I said it to a very, very pretty boy. I WAS FLUSTERED AND HE WAS CHARMING, OKAY? But seriously, can anyone say embarrassing? I ASKED A COMPLETE STRANGER TO SLEEP WITH ME! Why would a song even SAY that anyway?! Bah! Danielle was laughing her butt off at me OF COURSE. I don't blame her. I was too embarrassed to laugh myself. Because seriously. OhmyGod >< The boy took it well, though, haha. Pretty sure he leered a little until Danielle explained I was a silly foreigner who didn't know what she was talking about. I think I was imagining his disappointment, but if I wasn't - HAH. In your DREAMS, mate. I am a virgin and will stay as such until I find someone who loves me and thus deserves to deflower me, thank you VERY much. A girl's virginity is a very special thing, you know.

Well, anyway. I'm bored of writing and my hand is starting to cramp. I think I'll do some more reading - yes, reading! For enjoyment! ME! I know, I know. Alice would be SO proud, I'm sure. Anyway. Yep. Reading time. And then hopefully sleep? Because, gosh, the sun is going to come up soon! Hahaha.

I hate jet lag.

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[olivia]

^worried

I would just like to say that Death Eaters are the OFFICIAL party poopers. First Hogsmeade, and now this?!

But, in all seriousness - OHMYGOD THERE WAS AN ATTACK ON LILY AND JAMES' WEDDING! Can you believe it? A freaking ATTACK. These three cloaked figures came swooping in when the ceremony JUST started and they just started shooting spells and people started freaking out and then there was A FIRE. And not just any fire, nono this was a HUGE fire and it was in the shape of a SNAKE and if I paid attention more in classes I might've known what it is, but then again it looked too evil to be taught in school and oh my gosh oh my gosh Lily and James and and I didn't get to see ANYthing much, really, because the next thing I know Lucy is grabbing me and we're apparating away and oh my gosh I hope everyone okay and that no one got hurt, oh gosh poor Lily. The wedding was SO beautiful and SO perfect and she looked gorgeous in her dress and James looked incredibly handsome and the bridesmaids looked all pretty in their matching dresses and Alice looks wonderful and everything was just lovely and then BAM. Three death eaters swoop - I can't help it, I like that word, so sue me - in and RUIN EVERYTHING >< I wish I could've stuck around to help out, but I probably would've only been a hinderence. Gah I just need to know everyone's okayyy! I mean, ALL my friends were there! Lily and James and Alice and Wendy and Pierre and Marlene and Sirius and Ethan and Rose and just - EVERYONE WAS THERE!!! BAHHHHH!!! WHY HAVE I NOT GOTTEN WORD YET?

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[olivia]

^sad

So I wrote to Alice since no one deigned to write to ME and tell me what the HECK is going on with everyone - then again I suppose everyone's busy with their own stuff but STILL. Anyway, I wrote to Alice. She didn't sound so good - or, well, as bad as someone can sound through owling, but still. Anyway. She's fine, thankfully. She got a little hurt, but nothing too serious. And Johnny Myers was the one who got injured the most, everyone else got away Scot free - except for Lily's parents. They...they...They passed away in the fire. According to Alice, Lily...isn't handling it so well. I've written to her and I still haven't gotten a response. Gosh, it's just so...it's just so horrible. I mean, losing your parents on your wedding day because of a bunch of murderous swines?! Gosh, poor, poor Lily. I really, really hope she's okay. I'm sure James is with her. At least, I hope so. He better be. Because she'll really need it, I think. And...and...oh gosh, this is so sad. Mr. and Mrs. Evans were such nice people. I met them once at the platform. This is just...so, so sad. So sad. But...I'm glad everyone else is okay. Well, except...oh gosh, this is upsetting too. In the paper it told us about the McKinnons death. Marlene's family is gone. Both Marls and Lily have lost their families just like that. I...I want to wirte to Marlene, too, but I don't have her address. I wonder if Pierre might have hers. I just...

R.I.P. Mr. and Mrs. Evans.
R.I.P. Mr. and Mrs. McKinnon.

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[olivia]

^excited

So, I really haven't been in the mood to write since Lily and James' wedding, what with everyone being sad and everything. But stuff seems to have calmed down? Lily finally wrote back to tell me that's she's doing okay. I don't know if I belief her or not. I want to? But that's my own selfishness speaking here, not wanting to be worried out of my mind about my friend. James is taking care of her, at least, although I'm sure he's feeling helpess. Aww, I just want to give them all a hug :[ Aaand now I sound like Rose. Haha. Woopsy. Anyway. I've been workined some more on sign language with Alex this summer. He's improving a ton! Still won't make eye-contact with anyone, but that's okay. I know he knows it's me. I know he feels me. Or, well, maybe I just need to believe it. Believe that when I go away again for Hogwarts, he won't forget all about me. But I know he won't. I'm his sister! How can he forget about me? Plus, I give him all that candy! Haha. Well, anyways. We don't ask the doctors anymore, because they'reeeee party poopers. What do they know anyway? Psht. Nothing. Only that a stupid degree qualifies them to say stuff that doesn't make sense most of the time. And really all they do is use big words to make themselves look professional and so that us poor wee humans who don't understand medical terms nod along and pretend to understand when, really, we're thinking about what we're having for breakfast/lunch/dinner. Hah. So yeah, I stopped listening to them a looong time ago. If I say that Alex can acknowledge me and my family, then he can dangnabit! He's not stupid or retarded! He's just...different. He's special. And I love him all the more for it! People just...don't understand that, you know? People are afraid of what's different, because they just don't understand it.

Anyway. I'm on my way to King's Cross Station to board the train. Back to Hogwarts, woohoo! It'll be nice to see all my friends again, like Lucy and J and Wendy and Alice and Pierre and Bella and Niko and so on. It's still shocking to me that so many of my friends have graduated and aren't coming back to Hogwarts - James, Sirius, Lily, Marlene, to name a few. It's so bizarre. I think I still expect James to be the one to conduct the try outs and stuff, but nope. It's me. Oh gosh, I forgot to write about that, didn't I?! I just got the letter a few weeks ago. I'm Quidditch Captain!! Can you believe it?! I would've thought for sure Niko would get it, buuut I guess not! Gosh, this is so amazing! ME! Quidditch captain! I hope I can do nearly as well as James did! Gosh, he was just so good, with all his tactics and his pep talks and, gosh, those are such huge shoes to fill! But I'm SURE I can do it. I love Quidditch, and I'll have Jake and Niko and maybe even Pierre there with me! It's going to be so great! Even though so many people graduated, I still have tons of friends back in Hogwarts just waiting for me to greet them - and I can't wait! Suddenly, I'm uber excited and -- oh, we're here! Ohmygosh, is that Sooz? AH I have to go say hello! More later!

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[olivia]

^cheerful

Ohmygoodness, it's soooo good to be back! Hogwarts is EXACTLY the same! Well, almost. Minus all the people who graduated. Bleh. Still! It's good to see everyone ELSE. And the ghosts, and even Peeves and Filch and all the Professors - except for Sluggy grossssss I am NOT looking forward to NEWT year Potions, it's going to be awwwwwful. Or I'M going to be awful. Same difference! >< Ohmygosh, I'm a seventh year. As in, it's my last year. As in, I'm graduating this year. As in, a year from now, I'll probably be sitting in wherever I'm going to work - I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE I'M GOING TO WORK!! Ohmygosh! The only thing I'm especially good at is HISTORY OF MAGIC, what the hell kind of job can I get with that? Although I suppose I could come back and be like...Filch's apprentice until he...retires? EXCEPT HE'S NOT GETTING ANY OLDER SINCE HE'S A GHOST AND HE'LL NEVER RETIRE. Oh my God, I'm going to be jobless! I'm going to be one of those icky unemployed people who depends on their family for financial support and then if I ever get married I'm going to be a boring old house wife who has to take care of the kids and who spends most of her days in an apron and I'm going to get fat and and and and OH MY GOSH WHY CAN'T I REMEMBER WHAT I TOLD MCGONNAGAL I WANTED TO DO LAST YEAR??? SFJDSIJAHIDGHIA AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!








Okay, freak out over. I'm good, I'm good. Phewph. Where was I before I started freaking out? Oh! Right! It's good to be baaaack, and seeing everyone is great. Oooh, Quidditch try outs are this weekend! I hope we get a good amount of people! Niko isn't applying 'cause the poor guy had an accident that summer and did something to his arm :[ And Pierre isn't applying either because it "clashes with his photography sessions" PIERRE figured out what he wants to do when he graduates, why haven't I?!. So I guess it's just me and Jake from the old team? Bleh, so weird. I know Lucy is trying out, though. And Kieran. They're great! Dunno who else, though. Hopefully we'll have a great team and SMUSH all the others. And I'm Captain! Ohmygosh, so coooooool. I have to admit, I'm kiiiind-of looking foward to bossing everyone around. Haha. Although that's not the ONLY reason I'm glad to be captain, of course! I get to use the special bathroom, too - you know, the one that the Head Girl and the prefects use? How cool is THAT? Pretty cool, no? Hahaha. I'M QUIDDITCH CAPTAIN! James' prediction came truuuuuuue! I wonder if he really DID talk me up to Professor Dumbledore. I'll bet he did, he's such a sweetie! Aww, I miss him already. I miss everyone. I do NOT want to get into this again, though. I'll soon be following in their footsteps, after all! Haha. Oh gosh. Wow. Seventh year. Me.

Yep, still not over it. Anyway, I should head to bed. Classes start tomorrow. I know, already? Sigh. It's definitely back to school. I miss summer alreadyyy. And France. France was nice. It was a great way of giving an excuse so I don't have to see my father aga

Ehem. Yes. Night, diary!

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[olivia]

^aggravated

So. Lila wrote to me. Alex is doing fine, as are Grandmama and Auntie Lena. Dominic got a job in Gringotts! I hope he's nice to the Goblins, he's not the most tactful of them all and Lord knows they're a sensitive bunch. She's great too, thankfully! I expect her boyfriend to propose any day now, they're just so happy together! Anyway, it was great to hear from her. Well, except for this one part where she eluded that I wasn't over Pierre yet. Psht, isn't that ridiculous? Of course I'm over Pierre. I dated Jake, didn't I? And yes, we broke up, but still. I wouldn't have dated him, or liked him so much, if I still had that huge ginormous major crush on him...right?! Right! Of course right! Besides, how lame would I have to be to still be hung up on him after three years? SO LAME! I am SO over him! Like..seriously! You won't find ANYone in Hogwarts who's more over someone than I am over Pierre! Because...because...you know what? I'm making a list, right here, right now of exact proof that I'm over him! Plus I like making lists and I haven't made a list in a while aaand...uh...yes! Here I go!

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[li] Jake.
[/li][li] It's our last year and I refuse to spend it pining over him.
[/li][li] What kind of name is 'Pierre' anyway for an English guy? It's a non-name. I can't have a crush on a guy with a non-name, thus I do not!
[/li][li] He's still hung up on his ex, AKA as my best friend. And she thinks I still have a crush on him. BUT I DO NOT.
[/li][li] He's completely oblivious. I cannot continue to pine over someone who is SO COMPLETELY OBLIVIOUS.
[/li][li] We fight. A lot. A LOT. Most of our time together is spent either fighting or making up. That's not healthy. At all. If I still had a crush on him, would I be fighting with him all the time? Yes No!
[/li][li] Due to his photography gig, he is now surrounded by gorgeous models and so would never even think of sparing a glance at plain little ole' me. As I cannot capture his interest, it is pointless to continue liking him, thus I do not!
[/li][li] I'm his best friend's little sister. Hence, off limits.
[/li][li] When we kissed last year he agreed that it was a mistake. And I only couldn't stop thinking about it because it was weird and it was Pierre and...and...yeah. It wasn't even that great of a kiss! >< ohmygod lies
[/li][li] It's been three years. That's a third of a decade. For God's sake I should be over it by now.[/li][/ul][/center]

There! See? All viable reasons!!!






Oh God, this is ridiculous. Maybe I need tips on how to get over him. MAYBE SOOZ CAN HELP ME GET OVER HIM. She's had a ton of boyfriends, so she should be experienced in that area, right?!

NO I'M OVER HIM I DON'T NEEEEEEEED SOOZ. I AM TOTALLY, ONE-HUNDRED PERCENT OVER STUPID BLUE-EYED PIERRE ANTHONY SCHAM.





>< Shut up, you're a diary, you can't judge me.

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[olivia]

^exasperated

Okay so I DID talk to Sooz after all. Just...you know, just in case! Of course, I didn't tell her I was talking about me. Although I think she figured it out at once, but still. I made it seem like a hypothetical situation - and honestly, 'hypothetically' does not seem like a real word now, we've used it so many times hahaha. Anyway. So I told her that I hypothetically had a crush on some and hypothetically wanted to get over him. She told me to give it time - HAH. I've tried that. It's been three years. Hello? Time obviously isn't solving anything. And then she said I should tell him. That's an even bigger HAH right there. Me, tell Pierre Scham that I - hypothetically - like him? HAHAHAHA. First of all, he'd think I was joking. And then he would either be awkward about it or...yeah, no, he's going to be awkward about it. And then probably try to let me down easy and end up doing it tactlessly because, uh, it's Pierre and he's not exactly the most tactful of them all - believe me, I know. I've been friends with this boy how long now? Years and years and years. I know how he functions. So yeah, he's definitely not going to be happy about it. Neither is he going to jump at this opportunity and suddenly confess that he has feelings for me, too, because HAH I'm his best friend's little sister and he's still hung up on Danielle and uhhh yep not gonna happen. It's just going to end badly, IIIII know it. I mean, we can't have a normal conversation without blowing up in each other's faces, how the HECK am I supposed to tell him I have feelings for him?...Hypothetically, of course. And gosh, when did I decide I had - hypothetical - feelings for him, anyway? SOOZ, YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO HELP, NOT MAKE ME REALISE STUFF! Because she asked all these awkward questioning probing...QUESTIONS! Like, she asked me how he made me FEEL! What kind of question is THAT? Or, well, okay I suppose it's a viable question, but still! It made me...say...stupid stuff >< I mean, I don't remember exaactly what I said, okay that's a lie, I know exactly what I said:

"He frustrates me. He makes me smile. He makes me laugh. He exasperates me. He makes me blush. He makes me nervous. He makes my hands sweat. He annoys me. He makes it hard for me to say no to him on anything, and yet he makes me argue with him all. the. time. But then every time we fight, I feel horrible. He makes me want to apologise and make everything better. He makes me feel safe and comfortable."

So he gives me the warm fuzzies and annoys the shiz out of me. Big deal! Anyyyone could do that...right?

Bleh. Sooz seriously thinks I should tell him. She thinks if I tell him and then just tell him I don't expect anything from him, and then I can move on. And she says I'll never know if he feels the same unless I ask. But see the thing is I already KNOW what he feels because - well - I know he's not interested! He was never interested, and he will never BE interested, so I might as well just forget it and forget him and get over him. All of this hypothetical, of course. Because I totally am over him.




Hypothetically?

Blah.

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[olivia]

^ecstatic

So I JUST got back from Quidditch try outs. We had a lot of great people trying out, including Kieran Sullivan, Lucy, Maylene Bell, Charlotte O'Hara, Matthew Fairfax and Jake, of course. Charlotte fell off her broom when she was trying to pull a stunt and broke her arm, so I didn't really get the chance to see how well she did :/ I think I have quiiiiiite a good idea who I'm going to pick to be on the team this year. Jake is a given, of course. Kieran too, he's fabulous. Lucy has a greaaaaat arm, as does May. Chace Maier was great too, but hrmmm surprisingly enough I think the girls were a little better with aim and consistency? Hmm, I'll think on that more. Charlotte would have been an amazing Chaser, but I suppose Matthew and Kali are great too. And then there's me, the keeper, of course. Gosh I can't beliiiieve I'm actually Captain and get to decide all of this! It's kind of nerve-wracking, but at the same time, SO exciting! Anyway, I'm going to read over the playbook James lent me. Gotta get ahead of the game and get prepared early if we want to beat all the other teams! I'm going to work this team soooooo hard, there is NO way I'm letting James down!

Also, I have not thought about Pierre ONCE today. Progress? Methinkso!

.................This time does NOT count, mmkay?

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[olivia]

^{in shock}

I'm in the hospital wing. Because I fell off my broom. Apparently, I fractured a hip. Sure feeels like it. My side is on FIRE. The magical potion thingy that Madam Pomfrey gave me stiiiill isn't working. Evidently it takes longer than "just ten seconds". EXCUSE ME FOR BEING IMPATIENT I'M IN PAIN HERE, LADY! Except I'd never say that out loud because uhh Madam Pomfrey can be scary when she wants to be and who knows WHAT she'll put in my potion if I piss her off? Uh, yeah, no, nope not gonna be stupid. I like my health. Anyway, I honestly don't know WHAT happened. I mean, one second I was perfectly fine, flying along - okay so I was trying to do a dangerous dive, big deal - during practice - I know, I know, practice on the first Monday after try outs? - I had to test them as a team, okay? It's a good idea, in my opinion. I don't caaaaare if Kieran whined about it. So anyway. Apparently, Karma's a bitch or something because next thing I knew the broom was no longer in my grip and I was free-falling I don't even know how many feet. It wasn't THAT many, thank goodness, otherwise, uhh, I'd probably be dead haha and I'm still alive and kicking - except not literally to the second one since I'm pretty sure if I kick out or something, I'm going to faint from the paaaaaaain. Okay, being a little dramatic, the potion is starting to work. I should be as good as new by tomorrow. I wanted to tell Madam Pomfrey not to call my family and alert them 'cause, well, they have a tendency to freak out reaaally easily. Where else do you think I get my Drama Queen-ness? All the female side of my mum's family are like that. My future daughter (...if I ever have one?) is probably going to be one, too. It's in our genetic make-up. But anyway. Yeah, I was out (Kieran had to carry me to the hospital wing in his big, strong, yummy, manly arms-- ehem. I mean. Yeah. I think the potions is starting to take an effect on me already) and the nurse called my grandmother and, evidently, she's coming here. I don't know, I suppose Professor Dumbledore will figure it out. I just...ahhhh I don't want her to comeeeeeee >< She's going to yell at me for sure, she NEVER liked it when I played Quidditch and now I've had a "serious" accident - EVEN THOUGH I'LL BE HEALED 'IN NO TIME'!!!- and ugh this has bad news written alllllll over it.

Also? I hope Dom doesn't send me a Howler about how irresponsible I am and how it figures I would do this during only the SECOND week of term and blah blah blah. Yeah, I know exaaaactly what he's going to say and it's going to be condescending and sarcastic and tactless and mean and blehhhhhh. That'd be SO embarrassing. God, imagine Dominic Thompson's voice filling the Great Hall tomorrow morning.

...

I really, really, REALLY hope I don't get a howler from him tomorrow morning. Lila - she'll be worried, but I'm suuuure she'll be fine with it. Auntie Lena, too, she's a taaad calmer than Grandmama. Gosh, I wish SHE was coming and not Grandmama, what is she even going to DO here I mean, REALLY, I'm FINE and I wish Madam Pomfrey hadn't called her and -- oh no, I can hear her coming. Yep, there's no mistaking that accented voice. Oh, oh, she's starting to speak in Spanish, nooot a good sign. Aaaand here she comes and craaap she does nooot look happy --

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[olivia]

WARNING FOR LANGUAGE....yeah, seriously.

^infuriated

Warning to...whoever might've picked up this diary although if you had then you better put it down but anyway: Olivia Thompson is about to go on a very angry, uncharacteristically-riddled-with-swear-words rampage. Mmmkay? Mmkay great.

WHAT THE FUCK IS MY GRANDMOTHER ON? NO FUCKING QUIDDITCH FOR THREE WHOLE FUCKING MONTHS - "AT LEAST"?! I MEAN SERIOUSLY, WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?! I'M THE FUCKING CAPTAIN I CAN'T BE BANNED FROM QUIDDITCH FOR THREE. FUCKING. MONTHS. I. WOULD. MISS. OUT. ON. SO. MANY. IMPORTANT. GAMES. I. CAN'T. FUCKING. BELIEVE. THIS. I. MEAN. WHAT. THE. ACTUAL. FUCK. IS. GOING. ON?? IT'S NOT LIKE I'M SEVERELY BROKEN, MADAM POMFREY SAID I'D BE PEACHY KEEN IN A FEW DAYS, NOT A FEW MONTHS, I DON'T FUCKING CARE IF MY GRANDMOTHER SUES THE WHOLE FUCKING SCHOOL I AM NOT FUCKING QUITTING I AM NOT I AM NOT I AM NOT. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY SHE'S NOT LISTENING TO ME. I LOVE QUIDDITCH ABOVE EVERY OTHER ACTIVITY HOW CAN SHE TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME?? SHE CAN'T, I WON'T QUIT, I REFUSE, I WON'T I WON'T I WON'TTTTTTTTTT!!! THIS IS JUST...BULLSHIT, IS WHAT IT IS. SHE NEEDS TO CALM THE FUCK DOWN AND REALISE THAT I'M PERFECTLY FINE.

ALSO MY HIP FUCKING HURTS AGAIN WHERE IS THAT PAIN POTION.

Oh shit, I just tore this page a bit. AND I DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK SO THERE.

Fuck, I need sleep or something.

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[olivia]

^depressed

I'm a...a...a...a SPINELESS SHRIMP. Yes. That's what I am. After that whole rant in the previous page. Which, you know, I'm kind of embarrassed about. I've never sworn that much before in my life. But anyway. Where was I? Oh. Right. Me. Spineless shrimp.

I promised my Grandmother I wouldn't do any "hard activity" for the next two months. As in, I agreed to quit Quidditch. IT'S NOT MY FAULT, THE EVIL OLD BAT HAS HER OWN MAGICAL POWER ON MEEEEEE. All she had to do was "young lady" me and I was suddenly putty. PUTTY I TELL YOU. She's just...GUH. She's scary, okay? Like, she gets this squinty look and her lips get thinner and thinner and she folds her arms and her whole stance is stiff and you can just tell that she's about to reach her boiling point. And then when she speaks it's in this voice that shakes my very core - NO I'M NOT BEING DRAMATIC, IT'S TRUE, EVEN MADAM POMFREY COWERED A LITTLE! So of course I couldn't say no to that. So, I promised.

And now I have to tell Professor Dumbledore that I'm quitting. He'll have to find another Captain. And another Keeper.

Excuse me while I go wail and moan into my pillow like the true Drama Queen that I am over my miserable fate of never really getting the chance to enjoy my captainship. >.<

Also, if anyone visits me, I hope for their sake that they bring chocolate.

Just sayin'.

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[olivia]

^{freaking out}

MY SUGAR SUPPLY IS GONE!! GONE!!!!! I've been out of the hospital wing for two days and I SWEAR I saw them yesterday and I had a whole STOCK full, but I just looked and THERE'S NO MORE CANDY!! SDJASIGJIJIGG SOMEONE STOLE MY CANDY SUPPLY OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHYYYY WOULD ANYONE DOOOO THAT? DO THEY NOT KNOW HOW MUCH I NEED MY CANDY? IT'S..MINE!! HOW COULD THEY JUST STEAL IT?! OOOOH WHEN I FIND OUT WHO DID THIS, THEY ARE GOING TO PAAAAAAY!

• Maylene Bell [if she was pulling a prank with Lucy]
  
• Lucy Murphy [see above]
  
• Danielle Olivier [......oooh, she's definitely a suspect]

My other roommates would never do it, so...it had to be one of them. Hrmm. Time to flex my investigative skills. I will have my candy back by the end of the day, you can count on it!

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[olivia]

^annoyed

It was Danielle.

She owned up pretty quickly, too. She was like "yes, Livy, I'm the one who stole your candy". IDJSFI I KNEW IT! I knewwwww it was her all along! Well, okay, so I didn't REALLY know all along, but I DID accuse her first so...yeah. There! At least I didn't have to falsely accuse the others. Bah. And you will not BELIEVE her reasoning either! Her excuse for being the dirty little thief that she is: "I'm worried about you, Livy. Now that you're off the Quidditch team and you're not allowed to play any hard sports, you might pig out more than you mean to and your metabolism really isn't the same as it was before and, before you know it, you're going to be fat and you won't know how it happened! I'm just looking out for you. You know I love you, you're my best friend, but you never were good at resisting tempation" and blah, blah, blah. She went on for a while after that, trying to calm me down and what-not. Evidently, this means she's banning me from sugar. COMPLETEY! I'm not allowed to buy any without her knowledge - I CAN'T BELIEVE SHE'S BANNING ME FROM CANDY!! As if I'm a little KID! Hello? I'm OLDER than her! By a couple of months only, but STILL. Older!! She can't just...boss me around and ban me from candy just like that, as if she was my mother Aunti Lena! BESIDES, sugar is like...like...I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT SUGAR!! How am I supposed to go off of just one itsy bitsy piece of candy per day? I WON'T HAVE ENOUGH ENERGY TO GET THROUGH IT! If I end up fainting or going into a coma or something I BLAME DANIELLE! She'll have MY death on her conscience!!

And no, I'm not ADDICTED! I could quit candy aaaaany time I want to. I just...don't want to. Because, come on. What girl can live without chocolate? No oneeeee. Bahhh. I can't believe she's doing this to me >< My best friend is evil. EVIL I TELL YOU! But I still love her anyway. And I know she means well. And...I guess I should cut down...

Butbutbutbut MY CANDYYYYYYYYYYYYY! ><

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^determined

Why is it every time I talk to Pierre, we end up fighting?. I'm starting to get really, really tired of it. Seriously. Every single time we talk it's either we fight again, or we're making up. IT'S SO FREAKING STUPID! He asked me to cover for him - a perfectly reasonable request, really. But, of course, I couldn't stop my stupid mouth -....figuratively since we were passing notes - and I teased him a little and he got kind-of mad and bahhh it was just a pretty terrible conversation, and it just got worse when I asked him who was modeling for him Emmeline Vance, ugh she's beautiful WHY AM I JEALOUS??? and he told me it was none of my business and I kind-of...flipped out on him and we had a small fight and then I backed off, FINALLY, because I realised I was being a bitch - when did I become such a bitch, hmm? I definitely didn't see it coming - aaaand then...I almost told him I liked him.

Yeah, seriously.

Except, I couldn't do it in a note. I just...I couldn't. It was like taking the coward's way out, you know? I just...I want to do it right. And I asked him to meet me somewhere, but stupid Pierre Scham has such a busy schedule that, apparently, he can't clear a space for little ole' me. Ugh, what a douche I understand I guess, but just...ugh. I'm still going to tell him. There's no way I'm going to let that deter me. I have to tell him. I just...I need to get it out so I can finally move on with my life, because honestly, everything else I've tried? It hasn't worked. So obviously I have no other choice but to do it. And I will do it. Tomorrow. Once I've got myself all...composed and stuff. Because...well, honestly, this is probably the most important conversation we'll ever have, and I don't want to ruin it.

Knowing myself, I will anyway.

Ughhhhhhhhh, here's hoping this goes well. ><

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