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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Jul 26, 2011 21:27:47 GMT -5
 when you’re fast asleep
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 DEARDIARY[/b] Also, I may or may not have had a dream involving Fabian about three nights ago. He kissed me. It was awesome. I woke up blushing.
MY STOMACH IS STILL IN KNOTS, THOUGH. Ha. I can’t help it. He was a good dream-kisser. I wonder if he’s NOPE NOT GOING THERE.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Jul 26, 2011 21:42:48 GMT -5
 the long and winding road
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10:00 AM
 DEARDIARY[/b] I really, really don’t have time to update this thing regularly anymore. How shitty is that? November is almost over now. I guess uh… let me see. What happened this month. I learned that Rosiers are dumbasses and not to fuck with them anymore, and er… oh, right. Aidan has absolutely no shame and sharp teeth. I… kinda went to a strip poker game? Invited Fabian, didn’t know we would all be getting naked. But it doesn’t matter. I sorta bolted after Paris and Tori just about fucked on the table, and from what I heard, it didn’t last too long after.
Ugh. I’m wiped out, though. Prefect duties, Riding Club, helping with the horses, studying, tutoring, everything... I need to schedule time to breath somewhere. I think that’s probably a necessity, yeah? Well, who knows. Fish live without much oxygen. Let me just grow a set of gills. We have gillyweed around here, right? I should do that.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Jul 26, 2011 21:46:03 GMT -5
 darkness falls across the land
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 DEARDIARY[/b] Oh, fuck.
Lyle got attacked in Hogsmeade.
A girl named Gabriella got hurt too, but not as bad. But Lyle – fuck. Fuck.
He’d better be okay, oh my god.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Nov 10, 2011 11:42:18 GMT -5
 all hell breaks loose
[/font][/i][/center] DEARDIARY[/b] It’s hard to believe how bad shit can get in only a week.
I went to St. Mungo’s with Jezebel yesterday. She had one of her appointments and wanted moral support, I guess, so I offered to go with her. There were a bunch of other students there, too. Ian’s non-girlfriend, Wendy, was shadowing a Healer. Stefan had an appointment, too. And Ian was there. Ian. He was there because Sooz got hurt in Quidditch, and Lyle came with her too. Fabian was there too, I dunno why, but I’m so glad he was.
It was so, so fucked up.
One minute everything’s fine. The next, there are Death Eaters killing all the Healers. I managed to make sure Jezebel and I didn’t see anyone die. I don’t think either of us are ready to see Thestrals. Plus I just didn’t want Jezebel to be haunted by that.
But then we were rounded to the cafeteria and everything went to shit. Jezebel broke her arm and I tried to set it with a chair and robes and I had no idea what the fuck I was doing, and I felt completely useless, and Lyle was panicking and then one of the Death Eaters took Lyle, just took him out into the hall and we didn’t know anything after that until the Aurors showed up, and thank fuck they did. We would have been killed, I know it.
Lyle was saved. Fabian saved him. I don’t know the details, I just know that Fabian fought the Death Eater (it was Mulciber, Dante Mulciber, he came back to finish the job I guess) and he was caught and Lyle was saved and no students died, but parents did, and Healers did.
It was horrible. I don’t think I’ll ever forget it.
I wonder why they attacked the hospital. Random attacks happen more and more, but those are almost always one-on-one. This time was different. This was organised and planned out. This had a purpose, but they didn’t take anything. There weren’t any reports of stolen potions or anything. I wonder if they were looking for people, and just never found them. I mean, they made everyone go to the cafeteria. It’s probably easier to find people if they’re all in one place. And I’m sure that if the Aurors hadn’t shown up when they did, they would have killed us. All of us.
I wonder if he would have shown up.
That’s a scary thought, isn’t it? As if a hostage situation wasn’t bad enough. I think if he had shown up, though, everyone would have given up any hope of rescue. I think we would all just be dead.
Thank god we’re not, I guess.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Nov 10, 2011 11:54:46 GMT -5
 too high, can’t come down
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DEARDIARY[/b] I think things are slowly getting back to normal. I haven’t seen Lyle around much, though. I really, really hope he’s okay. I’ll have to ask Stefan next time I see him. The poor guy, though. No one deserves that. No one.
Fabian’s going to teach me how to produce a Patronus. He learned how for Auror training, and we don’t learn it in Hogwarts and it’s something that I would really, really love to try. Ian wants to be an Auror, so I should tell him about it, I think.
Yule Ball’s coming up. I don’t think I’ll go this year. A) I don’t particularly want to, and B) haha, as if anyone will ask me anyway. Right.
Met one of Benjamin’s other friends the other day, though. Bloke named ‘Deed’ – Dedalus Diggle. Nice guy. Big, poofy hair. He had gum in it. I managed to get it out eventually. He’s a nice enough guy, I guess. For some reason he reminds me of a mouse. Maybe it’s his facial structure. But it’s just really easy for me to picture him hunched over with a block of cheese and eating it in a very mouse-like way.
Is that mean of me to say? That’s mean of me to say. He’s nice. And mousey.
I wonder if he likes cheese.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Nov 10, 2011 12:01:43 GMT -5
 they don’t know about us
[/font][/i][/center] DEARDIARY[/b] Um.
What just happened?
So, there I was, doing prefect rounds, and. Well. Ran into Regulus Black. He was an asshole, as always, but then uh…
He sorta asked me to the Yule Ball.
… Yeah.
Wasn’t I just saying that I would never get a date? Haha. Shit.
I said yes, because I’m a moron. So I guess I’m going to the Yule Ball. With Regulus Black. … Yeah. What the fuck even, I don’t understand.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Nov 10, 2011 12:24:55 GMT -5
 get in the water now (take your clothes off!)
[/font][/i][/center] DEARDIARY[/b] All right, so there’s the good news, and then there’s the “OHMYGOD I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE ANYMORE” news.
The good news is that my brother Simon tried out for an open Chaser position on the Falcons’ Quidditch team, and he got it. My brother is going to be a fucking celebrity. He was just a personal fitness trainer for the team, but then he decided he wanted to play someday, so apparently he’s been watching them practice a lot and practicing himself, and uh… yeah. He’s on a fucking national Quidditch team.
More good news? Stefan is completely, totally, one-hundred percent gay and is head-over-heels for Lyle. Called it. Also, I think my Rosier trouble might finally be over. I won’t go into details, but I know that I’ll never smoke a cigarette again, and I’m pretty sure we’re all just going to avoid each other and leave each other alone from now on.
Now for the other news, since writing about that sorta calmed me down a bit.
This morning, I woke up really early. I don’t know why, but I couldn’t sleep. So I decided to go for a walk. Again, I don’t know why. Anyway, I get to the Entrance Hall, and the door is open a little bit. Being a very stupid person instead of a cautious person, I went to investigate, and followed the footprints that were in snow.
Long story short, Benjamin was in the lake, and he was nak skinny-dipping.
Skinny-dipping!
AS IN, UH, I ACCIDENTALLY STUMBLED ACROSS BENJAMIN BURKE WITH NO CLOTHES ON? I DON’T PLAN THESE THINGS. THEY JUST HAPPEN. HONEST TO WHATEVER DEITY MAY OR MAY NOT EXIST.
Oh, you think the story ends there? JUST WAIT. THERE’S MORE.
I went skinny-dipping, too. No. I did. He asked me to join. In hindsight, it was likely he was joking. BAH. But I went anyway. Told him to turn around and I actually… IN THE BUFF. CLOTHES ON THE SHORE. NAKED. I HAVEN’T BEEN THAT NAKED IN FRONT OF SOMEONE SINCE I WAS BORN, AND EVEN THEN I’M SURE I CAME OUT WEARING A DIAPER OR LEAF OR SOMETHING.
I’m freaking out a little.
By the way, the water was freezing. I don’t recommend skinny-dipping in December to anyone.
Um, oh yeah, and Benjamin kissed me.
Just sorta… grabbed me, by the hips, and then boom-sha-ka-la-ka-snog. And then he said sorry and I DON’T KNOW WHAT I WAS DOING BUT THEN I WAS KISSING HIM AND WE WERE KISSING AND SNOGGING AND I DON’T CARE HOW GOOD IT FELT BECAUSE HE HAD A GIRLFRIEND. HAS A GIRLFRIEND.
Augh, he said they were on a break. What does that even mean?
Doesn’t matter, I still snogged a bloke who has a girlfriend. Naked. In water.
Okay.
It’s so surreal. Feels like a dream. God, I don’t even know anymore.
He kissed me.
Said he wants to ask me out, after the holidays.
He kissed me.
Commence freak-out.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Jun 26, 2012 9:00:23 GMT -5
 my grown-up Christmas list
[/font][/i][/center] DEARDIARY[/b] Remember when I said Regulus Black was taking me to the Yule Ball?
Didn’t quite work out as planned.
Yeah, he ditched me for my sister. Which… I mean, in hindsight, it’s not so bad. Vivi got to have a nice time, and I didn’t want to go with Regulus anyway. But in the moment, it was rather embarrassing, and I feel pissed off on Tori’s behalf since he should have gone with her. But Regulus Black is an asshole, so what can you expect, right?
Anyway, Fabian cheered me up. Sorta. Well, he tried. I mean, he spilled a drink on me then actually poked me in the boo chest with his wand trying to clean it up, so that wasn’t really fun. More like “kill me now because I’m so mortified”. Anyway, uh… I convinced him not to punch Regulus, and then I left. Apparently Ian won Yule Prince, though, so that’s good if you’re into that sort of thing. Haha, I bet I was at the bottom of the pack for votes.
I did manage to give Ian his Christmas present this morning before he left for holidays. I can’t believe Christmas is tomorrow. God. This year is going so fast and so much has happened. Hopefully next term isn’t nearly so bad.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Jun 26, 2012 9:19:40 GMT -5
 light a candle to chase away the darkness
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7:56 PM
 DEARDIARY[/b] I hate Christmas.
Marlene McKinnon died in Diagon Alley. Fabian got hurt there. Benjamin… I don’t know what to do for him. I can’t think of anything.
I just…
He’s pretending everything is fine and it’s not and I know it’s not and I just… he’s… god, I don’t know what to do, I don’t know him well enough to properly be there for him.
I want to go home.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Sept 10, 2012 23:14:03 GMT -5
 para, para, paradise
[/font][/i][/center] DEARDIARY[/b] I don’t know where to begin. I’m not at Hogwarts. I’m not at home either. I’m… well, I’m on my way back to Hogwarts now. Tori came and got me. I don’t even really remember what happened, but I… I guess I was in some catatonic state or whatever, and she got permission to take me out of school for holidays, and… and we were on an island until after New Years’. It was incredible. We went surfing, and it was just… so much fun, you know? I surfed a couple times at Fistral Beach but the waves were nothing like they were here. And the water was so blue but when you swam it was so clear and we went snorkeling and saw all kinds of fish and coral and even some sharks, which was kind of scary but also really awesome. And we went hiking and jumped off a m*th*rf**k**g waterfall, which oh my god, I never thought I would do, but it was amazing. And the best thing ever was when we swam with dolphins.   Yeah. That was amazing. I can’t even begin to describe it. Dolphins are just… the ultimate anti-depressant. And uh, I went surfing in the buff. Still can’t believe I’ve gone skinny dipping twice now, and neither time alone. Haha yeah, uh, there was a party on New Years’ Eve and everyone decided that naked night surfing was the right thing to do, so we did it. I’m kind of embarrassed but it was fun so also not? Not that I’ll make a habit of it, but it was… really fun. And then we did some parasailing and scuba diving and got massages and tans and it was so good, so very good, and now we’re on the way home. I guess now I have to face Benjamin.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Sept 11, 2012 21:51:46 GMT -5
 comes crashing down, down, down on me
[/font][/i][/center] DEARDIARY[/b] He hates me.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Sept 11, 2012 22:02:01 GMT -5
 if there’s a prize for rotten judgment…
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 DEARDIARY[/b] I guess I deserve it. Well, no. I do deserve it. I left him. I abandoned him when he needed me. He needed me and I was too fucking selfish to stay and I left him. I ran off to have some fun and run around naked, of all the stupid things I could have done, and I left him alone to wallow in misery and loss alone. Because I’m a wonderful, caring friend, of course. Gosh, isn’t he lucky to have a friend like me? The type who ups and leaves when he’s in trouble? Good to know how reliable I am, right?
Haha, the best part is, I’m pissing myself off writing this because of how whiny and self-centered I am.
Wonderful.
I don’t care if he hates me or not. He’s in trouble. He’s emotionally wrecked and he needs help. I’m here now, and I’m gonna be here for him, whatever it takes. That’s a promise.
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