they made a statue of us.

[Lucy Murphy]

september 23, 1977

...So, I quit the Quidditch team. Which went well. And I told Kieran. And he took it all right, which was a comfort. And Maggie's sent me some books, along with a lengthy letter that involved a lot of freaking out and a lot more questions, most of which I don't even know the answer to. Also she ranted at me about Will and asked a lot more questions about him. Which freaked me out, because I still haven't told him. And. Well that's clearly problematic. And I think I've figured out how far along I am, but I'm not sure because it was too complicated and I don't remember exact dates and I get confused easily and I've been really impatient lately so I sort of just gave up and decided I'd leave the figuring of that out up to an actual medical person. I'm probably going to go to Madame Pomfrey today. And then Dumbledore afterwards. Progress. Or...whatever that's considered. I'm being effective. And taking initative. And stuff. But I just want to sleep. All

I want

to

do

is

SLEEEP

Why is that so hard. Whyyy can't I sleep? Oh, I know. Because I have too many things to do, and too much homework, and ugh.

HOW IN THE NAME OF GOD WILL I HANDLE THIS FOR THE NEXT HOWEVER MANY MONTHS

lucy

[Lucy Murphy]

september 26, 1977

Today was spent almost entirely with Will. Which was refreshing, because lately we've both been swamped with a lot of homework and we've decided that we should probably do our homework NOT together because we always end up snogging and not getting anything done, and I've just been taking a lot of naps and being lame and doing other things that hestillhasnoideaabout but ANYWAY we hung out and it was so lovely. I don't want to say I'd missed him, because it wasn't like...we stopped seeing each other, we'd have meals together and sit together in class and walk together, the usual, but we were never really alone, there were always other people bopping around like Wendy or Olivia or Brody or Emily or Alice or Kieran, you get the picture. We mostly laid around all day. And I didn't get out of my pajamas aka his clothes until we went for a walk on the grounds at like two. And then we laid around on the grounds even more. And it was just nice. And I love him. And. Well. Yes.

...I am also terrified of telling him.

Which is bad. Because. Well. This is his child and he should be involved. And I know that. And. I. I just.

...Am apparently a really shitty Gryffindor.

And girlfriend. sighshitfuckdamnfdaslkfjdsfdugh

....And now it's time for bed.

lucy

[Lucy Murphy]

october 1, 1977

want to know what i love about fall? the smell of the outside. and the colors of the leaves. and the weather.

that is all.

lucy