Absence Doth Sharpen Love.

[prissy]

bleh. so. i've been missing assignments and failing quizzes and overall having a really really sucky few weeks lol because i've been trying to post post post for ISS and study study study for school at the same time, andddd it ain't working. so! i know none of you want to hear this (fuck, i don't want to hear it) but school is my priority and i have got to get my ass in gear. senior year has been hell so far academically for me, and my new high school is crazy intense. soooo i've just gotta spend less time on ISS and more time on schoolwork, and as soon as i reach a good balance again, i should be fine. things wouldn't be so bad if i could work on a post a night and catch up on my replies, but keep in mind that i still have dani's app to work on, which takes up lots of posting time. so my priorities in regard to the school/ISS relationship go in this order: school, dani's app, posts. and then i've been kinda weird muse-wise lately, like, totally into some of prissy's threads and totally not into others and then totally not into most of my other charries and yeah so. XD just bear with me lol? i promise it'll be over soon.

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[prissy]

hey guys. i'm just posting to say that i'm going to be taking a two to three week break from ISS, just because i'm really stressed and really emotionally fried from school and college applications and family drama and everything and ugh, i just feel like shit, honestly lol. since everything else in my life seems to be shitty i've decided that i can't let it affect my college apps, and i can't let it affect my chances of getting into my dream school. i have to work harder and get distracted less and stuff. it's just a really awful time for me and it's been like this for a few weeks now and i just need a break from stuff. i'll still be around on msn and tumblr and twitter and stuff, and i might come back periodically to check my PMs/do some housekeeping with trackers and clogs and diaries and stuff, but i just can't be held responsible for posting. in note threads or regular threads. truth be told all the stress i'm under is affecting my muse and i just don't feel like writing or getting into character or anything. what i feel like doing right now is crawling into a hole and dying lol because i'm just so freaking overwhelmed by stress. on that note, there might be some character drops in the near future, though i'm not promising anything and i'm not totally sure yet. i just know that right now my life is too hectic for me to keep up with all my posts and i almost got caught up last weekend which was great but yeah, i just, i can't do that every weekend. anyway. yeah, so, i'll be gone for a little while, but hopefully back soon. please don't hate me too much. trust me, i feel really bad. i feel like crying right now hah. so. i'm really sorry about this.

-fief

[Lily Evans]

Aww, babycakes, it's totally okay. I'm sorry I couldn't be there for ya yesterday, I had no idea it was that bad. I'll talk to you tonight hopefully, hang tight, we all understand needing a break lol ♥ I hope things lighten up and...yeah, I'll ttyl on msn. Love ya.

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[Ian Fleming]

Whoa, I didn't get a chance to read this earlier. *Fingel snug* We understand, Fief darling, and hopefully you feel better and get everything squared away.

[Emmeline Vance]

you know my thoughts on this ♥


ily.

[jada]

It is okay Fief, I hope things start to look up for you soon!

[alicelogan]

hey guys, just wanted to let you all know that i don't need to be on hiatus anymore, things have been looking up and i've been getting things under control, andddd yep! (: thanks for all your kind thoughts––they were and still are so so so much appreciated. i feel like i'm in a pretty good place now though, and so i can go back into posting regularly!

i can't stay away from here for very long, besides.

-fief <3

[alectorose]

hey guys! i'm just gunna be going on a quick college visit today and part of tomorrow, and i probably won't have internet access. i can try to use my phone though!

see you all later,
fief xxx

[prissy]

UGUIZ I'M SORRY I FAIL AT LIFE.

i've been so so so so busy with school and with my friends and social stuff and fdhfdklhnfklhfkdlhnfdkhnfkdlhnfdklhnfkldhnfkdlhnfkdl
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THAT IS HOW I FEEL.
i mean in a good way, of course. but still.
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i'm so sorry i've been inactive lately. just. busy and stressed. ><
i love you all and hopefully i'll be able to start posting again soon.
-fief

[Regulus Black]

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Ha. Um. So. Hi guys. I realize I've been gone for... a while. And I'm really sorry. Like. Really, really sorry. I don't want to get in to too much detail, but I've been going through some severe depression (possibly personality disorder related, they're not sure yet) which has landed me in the hospital and stuff and eh, it's been kinda bad. But I mean. It'll be okay. I'm fine. And I'm going to therapy and getting medication and things will be alright. But yeah, on top of that, though, I've been extremely stressed with school, and with the school musical, and the two one-acts that I have big parts in, and with college, and just. Everything. Soooo that's kind of why I've been so inactive. I'm really sorry guys. =/ I feel so bad about all the threads I'm in, all the plottage I have. I really, really feel bad about that. But I'm going to start trying to slowly re-integrate myself back into the groove of ISS. It's going to be sort of a slow process because I'm really busy and stressed and crap but I should have more time once the school musical is over, and that's when I'm planning to try and get back in to the swing of things. I miss you all. I love you all. And I hate that I've been away for so long. But I'm getting better about managing my time and so soon, I hope, I'm going to be able to start being more active again, for good. But for right now, it's a struggle. So, I guess, just bear with me a little? That's really all I can ask for. That, and forgiveness, for completely falling off the face of the earth and leaving plots high and dry. D: I'm so sorry guys. It'll be better soon, I promise. I'm going to keep trying. In the meantime, though, I just wanted to let you know what's been going on, that I still exist, that I love you all, and that I'll hopefully be coming back soon.

<3 Fief

[Indigo Grace]

Hey Fief it is soooooo good to hear from you!

Sorry about all the bad things going on in your life right now. I think everyone on this site has had more than their fair share of struggles so we understand. I miss you and I'm glad you're going to try and come back. I'm here for you, good luck with what you're dealing with and YAY YOU'RE BACK!

Kel

[ritaskeeter]

Hey, lovie ♥ Just want to wish you luck again with the play, you already know how I feel about everything, but yeah, just the best of luck, always and with everything. I know you can get through this, and you know you can get through this, so just remember that, remember everrrrrything I said and what you promised and yep, yep, yep. Just wanted to leave this here for you to see in case I don't get to talk to you soon, idk, just know that I'm thinking about you and I love you, always.

xoxoxo

[Regulus Black]

alright, so, fief has decided to actually make an effort at being active once more, now that the main play is over and she's starting to get her life somewhat back on track. however, to do this, she needed to cut back on her characters. priscilla, vanessa, and tegan have all been deleted and regulus, severus, and alecto remain. right now, i'm going to focus on getting back into the swing of things, and then i'm going to start bringing back some charries and making new ones, once i get the time. see... i kinda want a fresh start. you know? after all the crap these past few months, i just wanna try some new things, have some new charries, and idk. it just feels like the right thing to do. so i really apologize if this screws up anyone's plottage and stuff, but... i guess it's just something i have to do for myself. so for right now, i'm sticking with my three and i'm gunna ease back into posting. once i feel comfortable enough, i'm going to bring back jules. i know i said i wanted a new start with newer charries, but i've been missing jules for a while now and i've had some new ideas for her, and i'd like to have her back. as for the final two slots, i have a few ideas in mind that i'll probably end up pursuing once i feel the time is right. anyway... yeah, i'm really sorry guys. i know i'm being irresponsible and stuff but. i just need time. and a new start. i love you all.

-fief

[Regulus Black]

yep. me again. i just wanted to pop in and say hello, and apologize again for being so freaking inactive. i feel terrible about it. school's just been really hectic lately and i've been super busy with my personal life too and i just haven't had the time or energy to post as much as i used to. summer's just around the corner though, and i'll be getting a lot more sleep and having a lot more time to myself, so i'm anticipating a spike in activity. hopefully. that being said, i know my charries are a mess right now. i know. and frankly i'm still unsure as to what things will end up like with my final line-up. all i know is that sev, alecto, and reg stay. that's literally all i can promise. due to personal stressors and other factors my muse has been completely all over the place and i have weird bouts of inspiration and i just. i'm a mess right now lol. i want rodo, that much i know, and i will be making him shortly, as soon as i get the time. hence the reservations i made. i am serious about making him. as for grace, i deleted her. her muse went away almost instantly and it was just one of those whims i shouldn't have acted on. my mistake. jules, i'm not sure if she'll be staying or not. for now she is, but, again, i can't promise anything. as i said, reg, sev, and alecto (and probably rodo but i don't count him technically since i haven't made him yet) are the only ones staying. i know that i'm irresponsible and crazy and i'm sure you guys are tired as fuck of me constantly changing my mind and really, all i can do is apologize. profusely. and then prove it all to you that i can get back on my game as soon as summer rolls around and i get with a comfortable set of charries again. a lot of me really, really, really wants a fresh start. sans the charries mentioned above, i just... want a change. something different. it would make me feel less guilty, i suppose. idk. i've been thinking about making luna's mom after all, for instance, which is something i've wanted to do since before i even joined with priscilla, so i might do that. but other than her, really only the possibility of her since i'm not going to be making anymore quick decisions, there's not going to be anyone else for a while. i need to get my activity under control and rebuild some of the mess i've left here before i even think about taking a sixth charrie. i dunno. i'm sorry guys, i really am. i'm just such a jumble right now and i need to figure things out. i promise i'll get better, though, and very soon i'll be as active as i once was. i love you all, and thanks so much for the patience and understanding.
-fief

[Regulus Black]

soooo i'm sure you're all probably sick of me constantly posting in here but. i just have to say that i'm having a really hard time with ~life right now and i just. i can't post. i want to, but i literally can't. it takes almost all my energy just to sit here and type this, let alone get myself into a chair. i know i sound pathetic and stupid and, well, frankly, i really am right now. i have no motivation to do anything and i can barely stand up and walk over to the computer desk as it is. i just sort of lay in bed all day and sleep, mostly. it is a struggle to breathe. i don't want to sound overdramatic and whiny and use this as a ploy to get pity and attention, i'm just trying to explain why i've been so inactive lately. it's not because i'm busy, really. it's just that... idk. i just can't function. i really can't. my arms are aching as i type this and i can't hardly keep my head up to look at the screen. i'm exhausted for no other reason than that it takes energy to continue living. to get out of bed in the morning. to open my eyes and live through the day. god, i sound so fucking pathetic. i'm sorry guys, i really am. i just feel like shit about disappearing and hardly coming on the site anymore and i just need to explain myself. i just feel so bad. but i'm going to try a new medication now and hopefully that will help. the prozac and zoloft had no effect whatsoever so my doctor is putting me on effexor. i'm sort of scared but at this point, nothing can make me feel worse. so it's whatever. sorry i'm spewing all my personal information everywhere all over the site. i just want to be honest with you guys and have you know what's going on. i hope it'll get better soon. honestly right now i don't feel like it ever will, but hey, you never know. i am trying, though. i really am. and i'm so sorry for all the plots i've held back and everything i've screwed up. i'll make it up to all of you guys somehow, i promise. but for now i have to focus on living and on trying to make it through each day without wanting to off myself. so. i'm gunna work on it. i'm sorry for being so annoying and melodramatic. i know it must be really annoying to keep reading these pity-party updates of mine. but i just. needed you guys to know, that's all. because well. you're my family. and i love you. and if it weren't for you guys i don't know where i'd be right now. anyway. i think i'm going to go take a nap right now. so i'll try to check in later on msn or something, because i really really miss talking to you guys. thanks for bearing with me on this. it really means a lot.

- fief