Absence Doth Sharpen Love.

[Imogen Sauveterre]

*hugs Fief* I just hope things clear up for you and that you're okay. ♥

[Alessandra De Luca]

*Fingel snug* I luff you and hope you'll be okay?

[jules]

*hugs* thanks guys.

well, i have AP tests this week and next week and i need to study. and besides that my life is kind of falling to pieces around me and i lack both the desire and motivation to post. i'm sorry guys. i just need a break.

[severus]

iiii'm going to be in D.C. tomorrow and friday, just so y'alls know. and then when i get back i have prom soooo i might be MIA for the next couple of days!

[Regulus Black]

moving out of the cottage this weekend, leaving now, will be back later monday night. theeen on tuesday i'm going on an all day field trip and won't be back till later that night. sorry guys and seeya all then! *hugs all*

[severus]

war and peace paper due tomorrow. finals next week. i. will. die.

i'm so sorry i haven't been active, i feel really terrible about it but there's honestly just nothing i can do. i am so stressed out i want to jump off a bridge lol. i'll talk to you guys later. D:

[Ian Fleming]

*flailsnugs Fief* I hope everything works out for you!

[jules]

*snugs Sewaph* thankies! <3

okay, so today is the last day of school, and then FREEDOM. flnfdnhklfhndfkldfn thank the lord jesus. i just have my math and french exams today and then i'll be done forever, except.......ACT on saturday as well as this pool party i've been invited to. -_- so this means i'll be free later tonight, all tomorrow, and gone all day saturday and most likely half the day sunday (we're going to see family). but when i'm free, i shall be having a posting spree, i promise. it's been too long and i'm really sorry. ><

[alicelogan]

heey guys.

so, tomorrow i'm leaving for atlanta and i won't be back till monday. we're getting the keys to our house and moving in some of the more fragile things first. i'm bringing jemaine (my laptop) with me and i should get a large dent in my wall of owed posts down, but i probably will only have very limited internet access. also visiting my cousin, who will be down there for a few days. i haven't seen her in at least four years so it'll be nice to see her again. ^^ but yeah i'll be back monday night and i'm leaving tomorrow morning-ish. i've got 22 hours in the car total haha so i'll deff get some stuff done.

see you guys on monday, then!

[alectorose]

well, the big days is fast approaching. we're moving in officially on wednesday night and we're leaving eaaaarly early early wednesday morning at 4am in order to make the straight, 11hr drive down to my new house. it's monday, and i'm still not fully packed. =/ so today and tomorrow are going to be largely about packing and such and i'll check in every now in then but i can't guarantee that i'll be on for long stretches of time or anything. i'll have plenty of time to work on posting on the ride down (after i wake up lol) so don't worry, i'm not gunna leave you high and dry for a while. the only problem is that once i get down there, i won't have any internet. at all. period. it's also fourth of july weekend so i probably wouldn't have been on anyway. the cable guy isn't coming till monday afternoon so monday night is probably the earliest that i can get connected. sorry guys. =/ i know it sucks but i promise i'll have a posting spree when i get back.

-sugs- i love you all, and i meant it when i say that if it wasn't for ISS i don't know how i'd get through this.

[alectorose]

just so you guys know, the move got pushed back a day so we won't actually be leaving until tomorrow morning at 4. today's my last day with internet for a while and i might be on periodically throughout the day but i'll be offline more often than not. the last day in my house i kind of want to spend in my house and not on the internet, no offense or anything. so i'll see you all on monday afternoon.

- fief

[alicelogan]

heeey guys. just wanted to explain my overall inactivity lately. there's just been a lot of things stressing me out and all this stress is really a muse-zapper. everyone knows their AP scores right now except me because my scores were sent via snail mail to my house back in ohio and haven't been forwarded yet to my new house. everyone i've talked to has gotten 5's. but i feel so nervous i think i might die. like, not even kidding. i've been making myself sick over this for days now and i just feel so terrible about it that i don't know what to do. i just can't handle any more disappointment because i did really shitty on my ACT and SAT and if i do shitty on my AP tests as well... i just don't know what i'll do. i'm trying to stay positive, it's just really hard, because on top of all of that i have to set up everything for my new school and get my assignments and i'm just so freaking stressed right now and i literally cannot post. i'm going to keep trying to get through stuff but... it's just really hard. so i'll be in and out i guess. i'm sorry, guys. i'll be more active once all this gets sorted out, i think.

- fief

[alectorose]

okay, good news! i can begin posting again and i feel so much better because i got my AP scores this morning and they were actually really good. <333 soo yep, sorry to pull the drama yesterday, i was just really freaking out. >< everything's good now, though. (:

[prissy]

hey doodz. school starts for me tomorrow. -dies- -dies again-

soooooo you know the drill. posting will be less. =/ three AP classes, one honors, and a bunch of electives. please bear with me! thank you.

[alicelogan]

heey guys. i just wanted to take a moment to explain the reason for ted's deletion. some of you may have noticed and others may not have noticed that i did, in fact, delete him today, for the reasons i will now tell you. basically, i've been struggling with his muse for months now. and i've been pushing along, trying and trying and trying to make it work, and well, the thing is, it just wasn't working. =/ and this wasn't some random thing––i've been having issues with him for, like i said, months. and kabby and i have discussed it at length, and even reworked tedromeda a few times, and still... it wasn't working. =/ and it wasn't any fault of kabs' annie, gosh no, because she's uber amazing. it was just... my ted. there's always that charrie that you make sometimes that you never fully click with... you know? i think it happens to everyone some time or another. and i guess ted was just that guy for me. it's always been a struggle to post with him and i felt bad, cause hey, he's a fairly important canon, and here i am taking up his slot and having no muse for him when there could be someone else amazing out there who's just dying for a chance to play him. and who am i to stand in their way, you know? =/ and it's not like i haven't tried with ted. god, have i ever tried. months, doods, seriously. and it's been a fun ride, with tita and some tedromeda fun stuff and head boy and all that. it was all great. (: and don't get me wrong––i really loved ted, and i loved playing him... or, maybe, just the idea of playing him. at any rate, i've talked to kabs about this at length and she's actually the one who advised me to do what was best not only for me, but for the whole site––which was to delete ted. and i mean, she's right. someone else should pick him up who really can do him justice. (: soooo that's about the end of my rant. i just wanted you guys to know the real reason why, and to not think i'm some silly person who just deletes charries all over the place. which, i realize, i've been doing a lot of lately. which... brings me to my second topic.

i'm so so sorry that i've been weird with charries lately. believe it or not, i actually made a pact to myself to not delete anyone or make any new charries until after regulus dies (around february IC time). but the way things were going with ted.... =/ i had to break my pledge, because it wasn't fair for me to take him up and just have him sit there idle. i decided to delete ted a couple of days ago, but i wanted to make sure of a few things before i officially offed his account. but yeah, so, i don't want you all to think this was a random spur of the moment decision, because it simply wasn't. months and months of thought have gone into ted's deletion, as have multiple talks with kabs and with jooj and with skar and with arti and with ellie and kels and all kinds of people. this was not a spur of the moment deletion. that being said, my decision to pick up danielle olivier was not spur of the moment, either. i've considered playing her for a few months now as well, and have talked to both jooj and skar about such a possibility before. i was a bit caught off guard by skar's request for a dani in the plot thread and that's why i sort of panicked and posted there, since i knew that i would have an opening later but no one else did and etc, etc. i'm really sorry if i confused anyone or came off as a selfish bitch or anything, because please, please, don't believe that about me. it isn't true. i'm not selfish and i'm not a bitch and just please understand that none of this was random, and that i've been thinking about it for quite some time now. i know i may come off as totally, ridiculously random right now with my charries: making lucius, deleting him, making mandy, deleting her, making alecto, deleting ted, bringing back prissy, now making dani... and, honestly, guys? the only logical explanation i can come up for my conduct is that i've been undergoing serious emotional strain right now. i know i sound like some whiny teenager, but think about it. i have to go to an entirely different school for me senior year, i've been separated by three states from my father, and on top of that the classes at my new school are extremely intense and then on top of that i have to figure out how to apply for college and retake my shitty scores on the SAT/ACT and find some way to pay for that and then deal with senior dues and pictures and socializing and then... just, yeah. my muse has been all over the place lately because i have been all over the place lately. you can judge me all you want, but fuck, what i'm going through is hard. i don't expect you to pity me or anything––all i'm asking is that you don't resent me for it. or that you at least judge me kindly. i know it's no excuse. i know i've been less than a good example lately for anyone. but i can't help it. my emotions dictate my muse and sure, it's been a really rocky ride lately but i don't expect it to stay like that, you know? i'm adjusting, i'm making friends, i'm dealing with the culture shock, and i've been feeling a lot better lately. it's just... hard to climb back up to where i was. and i don't ask you guys to understand that, or even support it, but if you could just... recognize it, and not get too too angry with me for being a bit of a muse-wreck right now. it's temporary, i promise. i'm just in the hot seat right now. but i am making that pledge again. i will not––i repeat, i will not––be deleting or modifying my charrie list in any way, shape, or form after i make dani. that is, until regulus dies. after that, i've been talking to kels, and i'm thinking of making a rodolphus for her with my charrie slot. i can promise you that dani will be my last girl for a while. but yeah, kels wanted me to mention that i'm going to probably be taking rodo, if he's open, when i have room, just so that it's sorta out there and you guys know. but i mean, if you're burning up a frenzy to play rodo, just talk to me or kels and i'm sure things can work out. i mean, it's not like i'm reserving him or anything, i'm just saying that it's something i'd like to do for her if someone else isn't better suited for the job beforehand.

but yeah, anyway. i just wanted to clear everything up and apologize for things and make sure we're all on the same page. thanks for reading. love you guys.

- fief <3