Yours

[khai]

I feel kind of stupid writing in this, since we're going to be seeing each other every day for the rest of our lives, but whatever. I don't really know if there's anything left I can say to you that I haven't already said, so I might be repeating myself a little.

I love you. Always have, always will. I don't know who I am without you anymore, so if you pull that crap where you up and leave me again, we're going to have a problem. =P So because you were so adamant in giving me reasons for why you love me, and why you wouldn't leave me, I've come up with my own list of reasons why it would be impossible for me to be away from you again.

• We are so completely different that it's almost ridiculous that we're together. But I like it. You complete me in a way that I didn't know was possible because we're so different. I don't think we're ever going to see eye to eye on almost anything, but I don't care. As long as we're eye to eye on the fact that we're stuck with each other, I'm good.
  
  
• You never looked down on me. Ever. I think you might be the only person in this school who never did. To you I was never a whore, I was never that girl who went off the deep end because her asshole of an ex fucked her up real good. You never looked at me the way most people here do, like I'm just a used, broken piece of trash, you just fixed me. You make me feel like more than what people think of me.
  
  
• Even when we were little, you'd always stand up for me, and you've never stopped. You're always there when I need help, you're always there when some guy needs his ass kicked for grabbing my ass, you're just always there. And that's what I needed from someone to pick up the pieces of my life. I just needed someone to stick around and help me.
  
  
• You know more than anyone that I hate when you spend large amounts of money on me, but honestly there's a little bit of a lie to that truth. It's not so much the money, but the fact that you even care enough to buy me anything. And all your gifts are always gorgeous, and something you know I'd like, because you actually thought about what I would want. You care.
  
  
• There's this look you give me, and I never know why or what it is that I do, but every once in a while you look at me like...like just watching me amazes you. I've never been looked at like that before, and now that I have, I never want to go a day without seeing it.
  
  
• As obnoxious as you can sometimes be, I honestly find your vain arrogance really amusing. I'm not sure why, maybe it just keeps reassuring me that you'll always be ready for anything, no matter what it is. That you can take whatever is thrown at you, and you're confident in the decisions you make when you get around to making them. You're the rock I've always needed. Plus it's okay if you know that you're hot, because you are.
  
  
• I know it doesn't seem like a big deal, especially since I never have them anymore, but I've always appreciated the fact that you never asked about my nightmares. Talking about them is always awkward and embarrassing and just...painful. You never pushed to find out, even though you held me night after night to chase them off, and it's always meant a lot to me.
  
  
• I'll be honest, the tattoos, the whole bad boy thing? It's sexy. Even if you're a little girl about your hair.

There's my list, so I hope now you'll believe me when I say I'm just as far into this as you are. And Rab? I hope you know that I believe in you completely. I'll never doubt for a moment that if you put your mind to something, you could do it. I mean, you got me back, didn't you? You're more than what you pretend to be, even if you don't see it. You'll always be more than you think you are, if only because I know you can be.

I love you, baby.
I can't wait to marry you.

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