Post by Indigo Grace on Jan 3, 2009 1:50:11 GMT -5
You know, your comment about being uncapable of expressing all of your feelings in my yearbook, while still managing to be incredibly brilliant, is only succeeding in making me feel more inferior and shaken than I already am. The following love-sick, infatuated remarks are completely your fault. If only because they're about you and irreconciably true.
I remember the first day I came to Hogwarts, even if you don't. It was my third year and even though I didn't look it, I was scared out of my mind. And the hat had the gall to put me in Gryffindor? From that day forward, I insisted that the hat simply placed me there as some big joke. Then I met you in my potions class. We hated each other, naturally. It's hard for me to even recall all the reasons I've told you for our indifference, all of which were terrible no doubt. But what it was, was that I was intimidated by you. Here's this smart kid who knows to answer to almost everything, has lots of friends, speaks english like a pro and has the most gorgeous blue eyes I'd ever seen. I decided to hate you from that day forward so I wouldn't love you. I just didn't realize until a few months ago that I'd accomplished it too well, and even in a relationship I still tried to hate you. I really made a huge mistake. You say I taught you to love, but you taught me to live. Without you I wouldn't even know how, and you're the biggest reason why I now want to.
I'm sorry I've been the iciest, most dramatic girl you've ever met this year. It's only because I've been so damn scared out of my mind that I was falling for you. I'm scared of love Ethan, I think we both are. But I have learned one thing out of all of this: it's not out to get me, it's always been out to help me. Love is worth it, even when it shatters you in a million pieces. You're worth it Cartier, you've been worth it since the day I met you, I just never wanted to tell you. You had me since day one. And now you'll be leaving soon, and so I want to say thank you. Thank you for being my everything and never really, truely leaving me. I don't know how I'm going to go without you, we both know I detest change. I hate to be clingy, but maybe that's exactly who I am. I'm trying to cling on to the only person who's loved me for me, because you see who I really am even though I don't. To be painfully honest, because it's hard for me to admit to myself, you're the one who kept me going. My life's really screwed up and I know that, but you've silently told me it's ok. Silly boy, you've been attempting to hide what a genius you are all along haven't you? That's alright, I realize it now. You're a goody goody compared to the boys I've dated. You treat me like you respect me, and that's why I love you.
It's tough to just be friends with you, but I think it's going to be a whole new experience altogether when I have to see you go....
My first love, my last love. I couldn't bare to do it again.
I remember the first day I came to Hogwarts, even if you don't. It was my third year and even though I didn't look it, I was scared out of my mind. And the hat had the gall to put me in Gryffindor? From that day forward, I insisted that the hat simply placed me there as some big joke. Then I met you in my potions class. We hated each other, naturally. It's hard for me to even recall all the reasons I've told you for our indifference, all of which were terrible no doubt. But what it was, was that I was intimidated by you. Here's this smart kid who knows to answer to almost everything, has lots of friends, speaks english like a pro and has the most gorgeous blue eyes I'd ever seen. I decided to hate you from that day forward so I wouldn't love you. I just didn't realize until a few months ago that I'd accomplished it too well, and even in a relationship I still tried to hate you. I really made a huge mistake. You say I taught you to love, but you taught me to live. Without you I wouldn't even know how, and you're the biggest reason why I now want to.
I'm sorry I've been the iciest, most dramatic girl you've ever met this year. It's only because I've been so damn scared out of my mind that I was falling for you. I'm scared of love Ethan, I think we both are. But I have learned one thing out of all of this: it's not out to get me, it's always been out to help me. Love is worth it, even when it shatters you in a million pieces. You're worth it Cartier, you've been worth it since the day I met you, I just never wanted to tell you. You had me since day one. And now you'll be leaving soon, and so I want to say thank you. Thank you for being my everything and never really, truely leaving me. I don't know how I'm going to go without you, we both know I detest change. I hate to be clingy, but maybe that's exactly who I am. I'm trying to cling on to the only person who's loved me for me, because you see who I really am even though I don't. To be painfully honest, because it's hard for me to admit to myself, you're the one who kept me going. My life's really screwed up and I know that, but you've silently told me it's ok. Silly boy, you've been attempting to hide what a genius you are all along haven't you? That's alright, I realize it now. You're a goody goody compared to the boys I've dated. You treat me like you respect me, and that's why I love you.
It's tough to just be friends with you, but I think it's going to be a whole new experience altogether when I have to see you go....
My first love, my last love. I couldn't bare to do it again.
