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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Mar 24, 2011 23:12:07 GMT -5
 we're the pleasures of the nighttime that fade at dawn
[/font][/i][/center] DEARDIARY[/b] So... Raiden was serious. He actually lost his mind and decided he wanted to uh... do... that. With me.
Gross.
He said something about tutoring his brother. Fine. Whatever. I'll do that. Not that I give a shit or want to, I just... ugh, that was embarrassing. I don't want to be embarrassed. So... fuck it, whatever. I'll tutor Donny.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Mar 24, 2011 23:24:38 GMT -5
 i focus on the pain, the only thing that's real
[/font][/i][/center] DEARDIARY[/b] Fuuuuuuck my life.
I'm never, ever going to the library alone again.
First it's running into Regulus and having the mickey taken out on me. Then it's getting snogged against a bookshelf by Isaac. Then Priscilla goes and faints. Now? Now I run into Donny Rosier since Raiden asked me to tutor him, but make it seem like I'm not tutoring him. Yeah, I know. Ridiculous. So I do it and... turns out Donny doesn't like that. I pissed him off, yeah. Shouldn't have done that. But it happened. And he reacted. Basically I got slammed against the wall numerous times and bit my tongue and was scared to death and... it was terrifying.
Benjamin saved me.
Ha.
I'm not even saying that as a "Ohoho I have such a crush on him I need to concoct some hero fantasy." I mean he literally saved me. He got hurt, and I feel horrible about that but... he saved my life. Ian was in the hospital wing and it just... it was madness. Anyway, today I'm sore as hell and can barely move, but I'll be okay. I hope.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Mar 24, 2011 23:55:11 GMT -5
 there's nothing that i can't try
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7:47 PM
YICK DEARDIARY[/b] Tried to ride today, but uh... back still shot to shit. Fun times. Looks like Ian's gonna be manning the Riding Club for a bit. God, Rosier's a dick jerk. Donny, that is. I mean, Raiden is too, but... f**k*r. Raiden... he's upset over something, and it's not me. He's... I dunno, I still think he's... I dunno. There's more to Raiden than what he's telling me.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Mar 25, 2011 0:26:53 GMT -5
 'can i have yo' numbah?'
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5:15 PM
STRANGELY GIDDY? DEARDIARY[/b] Met Fabian Prewett in Hogsmeade today. ... Yeah.
I mean. Okay.
So.
Ian and I were in the Three Broomsticks, and uh... well, I saw him by the bar. Yeah. He has nice... arms eyes arms teeth. Actually managed to chat him up quite a bit before - er, chat with him - before we left. He's... he... he's really strong. I mean... haha. Yeah, he is. And he has lovely arms a nice smile and... I dunno, he was funny and I uh... really enjoyed spending... time with him. I mean, I hope I didn't distract him too much from... Auroring. But I mean... Wow. What do I mean? Haha. Um, I'm not even sure.
So, we chatted. And I... really enjoyed our... okay, it was a bit longer than a chat, I suppose. It lasted quite a long time, actually. God he has such lovely arms He's a really nice bloke, we joked a bit, he... is just... I think he'll be quite a nice... friend.
...
iwonderhowbigandhardhisbicepsgetwhenheflexes.
...
SERIOUSLY, THOUGH, THINK OF THE CIRCUMFERENCE.
... That was the most embarrassing - thank god no one else reads this. Jesus.
He's... god, I don't even know, I just... damn. Can I just... I like him. Okay. There. I admit it. I like him. I fancy him, I have a crush on him, I don't even know him but oh my god I fancy him what is going on here, emotions? I don't just go and like people just because of... I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY! He's just... UGH. I don't like this.
I like him though.
DAMMIT.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Mar 25, 2011 0:48:03 GMT -5
 it's a little bit funny, this feeling inside
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5:20 PM
 DEARDIARY[/b] WHY DO I LIKE HIM THOUGH.
THIS MAKES NO SENSE.
Ian was having a total gigglefest, too, the arsebucket.
GOD, HE'S JUST.
I DON'T EVEN KNOW.
Goddamn. I like him. HE MADE ME GIGGLE. DID I HAPPEN TO MENTION THAT? HE MADE ME GIGGLE, GODDAMN IT, AND I HAVE NEVER GIGGLED BEFORE IN MY LIFE. I DON'T GIGGLE. Giggling is like... a physical incapability for me! OR SO I THOUGHT, and then a wild Fabian appeared and just. UGH. BASTARD. Except not a bastard. He's the least bastardly non-bastard I've ever met. So what the fook.
I like him.
Shit.
... I wonder when I'll see him again.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Mar 26, 2011 23:27:47 GMT -5
 and you wished that you were running far away
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9:25 AM
 DEARDIARY[/b] Well, I got a lovely letter from Florence this morning. [/blockquote]  What's the best way to respond, do you think? "Dear Florence, you are a wicked and heinous bitch, and I would rather eat my own toenails than live with the likes of you and your terrifying lover and his repulsive children" or "Dear Florence" followed by owl shit? I'm sure if I asked Igor, he could aim very carefully.
Kinda wish I could never go back there, though. ... Ever. It's... hard when you feel like you don't belong in your own family, or even your own skin. HA, that's a weird one. But yeah. I just... well, whatever, it doesn't matter.
Also, I've come to realise that I feel very guilty writing in this thing. I mean, not really about the day to day stuff, but stuff like this. Stuff that's bothering me. Have I really repressed myself to much that I feel guilty poring my heart out to a fucking tree? God, I should just chat up the Whomping Willow and have it knock me around a little. Maybe that'll clear things up a bit. Maybe that'll get me to stop being such a big fucking baby and grow the fuck up.
So... there's that. Parents are officially getting a divorce, and Florence expects me to live with her and the man who donated sperm to make the Anti-Christ. Oops, I mean Vivi. And his little demonic sons.
WONDERFUL.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Jun 17, 2011 1:59:35 GMT -5
 splish splash i was takin' a bath
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11:27 PM
FLABBERGHASTED DEARDIARY[/b] I may or may not have just witnessed the most disturbing thing of my life.
Never looking at Lucius Malfoy again. Ever.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Jun 17, 2011 2:22:00 GMT -5
 i am so much better
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3:56 PM
 DEARDIARY[/b] Genevieve Sauveterre is the best sister in the world. I love her to bits but I’m also insanely jealous of her. I only wish I was as beautiful and perfect as her.
Reasons to be jealous of Vivi:
- she’s perfect
- she has flawless skin
- everyone loves her
- she’s smarter than I will ever be
- she’s perfect
- she didn’t make anyone kill himself
- did I mention she’s perfect?
I really wish I could just be her.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Jun 17, 2011 2:32:54 GMT -5
 boys, sometimes a girl just needs one
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6:50 PM
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Jun 17, 2011 2:41:48 GMT -5
 and i’d kick her, sir
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11:48 PM
 DEARDIARY[/b] I’M GOING TO DECK THAT LITTLE BITCH.
I thought I “misplaced” my diary. Turns out Demon Spawn stole it. And that little “charm” Florence put on it to “protect” it from outside readers? Doesn’t work for family, evidently. Because CLEARLY it was successfully unlocked, opened, read, and defaced. Even better, I can’t even rip those pages out because she put some sort of spell to make them impervious to tears, and I tried to scribble out everything but my ink just sorta evaporated off the page and ugh. UGH.
I swear to Merlin I will throttle her next time I see her. Meantime, this is never leaving my bag.
In other news… I did figure out how to get that quill for Benjamin. I’m sure Lucius Malfoy doesn’t want that embarrassing little incident to get out in the open, so… maybe we can strike a deal.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Jun 17, 2011 3:10:25 GMT -5
 it started out with a kiss how did it end up like this
[/font][/i][/center] DEARDIARY[/b] I think I deserve some sort of award for stupidity. Or sluttiness. Because seriously, how many guys can a girl snog, without being in a relationship with any of them, before she’s considered a whore? Two? Four? One hundred and nine?
HERE’S THE KICKER: HE’S GOT A GIRLFRIEND.
So basically. Despite knowing he has a girlfriend, despite knowing he is not and never will be into me, despite fancying another bloke on the side (har) and just…
Nope. Never looking at Benjamin again. Cannot. Just. No.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Jul 25, 2011 22:22:24 GMT -5
 you’re a hot mess
[/font][/i][/center] DEARDIARY[/b] I apologised to Jordan. I had to, you know? It was the decent thing to do. I’m not trying to break Benjamin and her up, honestly. Kissing him was a total mistake. Accident. Anyway, it’s out in the open. No one’s hiding anything, that I know of, and I hope they stay together because he’s really happy with her.
On the plus side, I got a bottle of tequila from Simon today. I’m glad the professors trust us enough to not check our mail unless it’s especially suspicious. Makes sneaking booze into the castle that much easier. But I definitely need to share it with someone, since… ha, there’s no way I’m drinking this whole thing alone. That’s just pathetic.
I still can’t believe I kissed Benjamin though.
Such a fuck-up.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Jul 26, 2011 21:05:17 GMT -5
 yeah we danced on table tops and we took too many shots
[/font][/i][/center] DEARDIARY[/b] I’m either really hung over or still a little drunk from last night.
What even happened.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Jul 26, 2011 21:07:42 GMT -5
 i heard that you were trouble
[/font][/i][/center] DEARDIARY[/b] Is putting a restraining order on Cameron Troy too drastic?
Seriously considering it, though. Honestly. The boy just cannot keep his lips away from me. I want to smack him but then he’d make a puppy face and I’d feel bad. You can’t hit puppies, that’s bad. I guess hitting people is bad too. But so is snogging them without their consent, really. Tit for tat.
On the other foot, the riding lesson I gave him went well. Made me realise how much I miss riding just for the hell of it. Gonna miss it like hell when it’s winter and we can’t do it anymore. Oh well. At least Hagrid’s still gonna let me help care for the horses.
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Post by Imogen Sauveterre on Jul 26, 2011 21:26:42 GMT -5
 life goes on
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9:30 PM
 DEARDIARY[/b] Ooookay. Wow. It’s been a while. Updates? Well, it’s now officially November. Stefan convinced me to go to Skeeter’s party, which I did, and promptly got shit-faced with a bloke named Lyle, who turned out to be the same Lyle that Stefan is now friends with. I may or may not have had a brief encounter with a werewolf (and I’m denying that that happened at all, so we’re just going to pretend I never said that) and oh, right, thing that’s kept me most busy/anxious/etc.? Benjamin got hurt.
Yeah. Not by a werewolf, either. He was beaten by someone and was in the hospital wing and things are all shitfucky. He woke up a while ago, when I was there, and we sorta… spoke? I dunno. Things are still really, really awkward between us. I may or may not have ruined everything.
What else.
… Fabian’s arms are still glorious. Have I mentioned that before? I cannot even… They’re the fucking eighth wonder of the world, all right? Just. Ugh. It is ridiculous that they are that massive without him coming with his own gravitational force. Actually, they just might, because I seem to be ridiculously drawn toward them. Him. Whatever. I KNOW IT’S WRONG TO OBJECTIFY SOMEONE BUT HE IS NEVER GOING TO READ MY DIARY SO LALALA I CAN SAY WHAT I WANT. I bet a crushing hug from Fabian is literally a crushing hug. I bet you wouldn’t need a heavy cloak in winter if you just had Fabian putting his arms around you the whole time. It would be no sweat for him to carry a person around. He could probably have one person sitting on each arm.
I NEED TO STOP.
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